1 Week Later

Olivia was just putting away her things to go to lunch when her cell rang. “Benson.”

“Hey sexy woman. Instead of going out to lunch, how about we order room service and have desert at the same time?”

Olivia glanced around. “Alex, we can’t keep having long lunches. The guys keep looking at me like I’m getting laid seven ways to Sunday!”

Alex laughed. “But you are getting laid seven ways to Sunday!” She heard Olivia draw in a breath. “Baby this last week has been incredible! I think I’ve had more sex in the last 7 days than I’ve had in the last 5 years!” Lowering her voice she continued, “Pretty please Liv? Pretty please with an Alex on top?” She heard the brunette inhale sharply and knew she’d won. “I’ll pick you up.”

“Alex, by the time you get here…”

“I’m around the corner.”

“Pretty sure of yourself?”

“Hopeful. Now move it!”

2 Hours later

They had both finished dressing when Alex grabbed her and kissed her.

“Baby? Mother’s Day is Sunday. I’d like to take you out for brunch if that’s ok?”

Olivia teared up. “Damn hormones!” She kissed Alex. “I’d love that.”

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Mother’s Day
Waldorf-Astoria

They were just about finished with their brunch when Kurt Moss approached them.

“Olivia….”

She glanced at Alex and then back at Kurt. “Kurt. What brings you here to a Mother’s Day brunch?”

He shrugged. “Didn’t realize it was for Mother’s Day. Guy’s gotta eat.” He glanced at Alex and then back to Olivia. “You’re big.”

Alex, who’d been seething ever since she’d seen him approach, felt the need to defend Olivia. “She’s not big; she’s beautiful.” For emphasis, she clasped Olivia’s hand and smiled at her.

“Of course she is. I just meant…well, I haven’t seen her in a while.”

They were staring at each other, nostrils flaring. Olivia rolled her eyes and decided to step in.

“If either one of you starts pissing a circle around me, you’re both in trouble!”

Alex flashed Kurt a purely predatory smile. “Don’t worry baby; Kurt knows whose bed your in and going to stay in. Don’t you Kurt?”
Ignoring Alex’s jab, he kissed Olivia’s hand and bid good-bye. Brunch all but ruined, they quickly paid their bill and left. Olivia let Alex know she was up for a short walk and they started in the direction of Central Park. An uncomfortable silence enveloped them and finally Alex turned to Olivia.

“I’m sorry. He just…he just gets under my skin.” She looked away from Olivia and took a deep breath. Turning back around she looked into the brunette’s eyes and smiled. “I’m just afraid you’ll wake up one day and decide this isn’t for you, that you want to be with the father of your baby.” She shrugged.

“Alex! Sweetie, I’m sorry you feel that way. I wish I could put your mind at ease. And Alex, this is our baby, not just ‘my’ baby.” Feeling bold, she stepped into Alex’s personal space, grabbed her and kissed her. In public.

“Wow!” Alex kissed her back and then giggled. “Miss Benson, that is the very first time you have ever initiated intimate contact with me!”

Olivia blushed. “I’ve been waiting for the right time.”

They walked on down the street holding hands. As they passed a jewelry store, Alex tugged on Olivia’s hand and motioned her inside.

“Let’s look at rings.”

Alex nudged her over to the wedding band section and at Olivia’s raised eyebrow she just shrugged. She watched Olivia closely and saw a spark of interest at one set of rings in particular.

“Do you like those?” Olivia nodded. “Do you like them a lot?”

“Yes. They’re beautiful.”

“Do you like the design enough to wear one of them for the rest of your life?”

“Alex?” She shook her head. “We can’t…it isn’t…”

“It is in Canada and Massachusetts.” She moved into Olivia’s personal space, grabbed her close and whispered, “Marry me Olivia Benson. Marry me next weekend in Toronto and then Boston. Be my partner, my wife, my red hot lover, the mother of my…our children.” She bit her upper lip. “Please.”

Olivia pulled away from the blonde. “Alex are you asking me this because you really want to get married or because you feel threatened by Kurt?”

Alex opened and closed her mouth before settling on an answer. “Liv I suppose Kurt helped prompted me into asking you today, but the truth is I’ve been thinking about it for a while.” She shrugged. “Baby, I’m not asking you to marry me just to keep you locked up and away from Kurt; I’m asking you because I love you, have loved you for a very long time and it was you, your face and memory that got me through Witness Protection.”

Olivia kissed her again. “Alex, I think I’d like to think about this. It’s not that I don’t love you enough to marry you; it’s that my life is pretty crazy right now and I just want to think about it. I need to know we are on equal footing Alex.”

Alex kissed her and nodded. “Ok. I think we should go home and discuss this further Liv. I made a few calls and found out some info that may help you make your decision. Or at least make you feel more at ease.”

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She handed Olivia her cup of tea and settled in next to her on the couch. “I talked with Trey. He’s a bleeding heart liberal who works with an organization called Protect.org that works to stop the exploitation of minors online. He’d like to talk to you about working with the organization for however long you’d like to take off after Riley’s birth.”

“Sawyer. I’ve moved out of the R’s and into the S’s.” She took a sip of tea. “What would I be doing?”

“Sawyer?” Alex shook her head. “Ok. Uh, I guess the same type of things you were doing with the cyber crimes unit.”

“It’s a real job and not just one you asked your brother to create?”

Alex looked offended. “I wouldn’t do that Olivia. One of the things I love about you is your independence. I don’t want to do anything to change you. Yes, I want to take care of you, but not make you completely dependent on me. Just talk to my brother and see if that’s anything you are interested in. Ok?”

“Ok.” She leaned over and kissed Alex, eventually pushing her back into the couch. She hesitated before slipping her hand under Alex’s shirt and stroking her belly. She eased off the couch and settled on her knees between Alex’s legs. Looking up at the blonde she purred, “Mama needs some lovin’.”

“Then let me take Mama and give her some.” She started to get up, but Olivia pushed her back down.

“Mama needs some lovin’. And by Mama I mean you.” She rubbed her hands up and down Alex’s thighs. “It’s your day too. You’re a Mama as much as I am.” Olivia cocked her head. “Unless you think you’re getting out of diaper duty and 2 a.m. feedings?”

Alex drew in a shaky breath. “Not on your life Olivia. Not on your life.”
She tugged on Alex’s pants until the blonde lifted her hips. She slid the pants down Alex’s thighs and carefully removed first the pants and then her thong, leaving the blonde exposed before her. Alex, unused to being on the receiving end, at least at first, began to fidget as Olivia simply looked at her.

She roughly pulled Alex to her and began to kiss her inner thighs. When she reached her center, she leaned forward and buried her face deep within Alex’s nest of curls. She quickly found what she was looking for and hungrily began lapping at her girlfriend, finding the blonde’s tight little nub.

“Oh God, Liv….oh….so….good.”

Olivia, who still had some reservations about her ability to please Alex, smiled against her and began to hum on her clit, bringing Alex’s thighs up off the couch.”

“Fuck!” She reached down and grabbed Olivia by the hair, holding the other woman to her. Alex began to pant and moan and gasp as Olivia pushed into her harder and deeper. “Liv Please!”

Olivia pushed into her lover with new fervor and pulled Alex’s clit between her lips and sucked hard one last time, causing Alex to fall over the edge. Licking her lips, she worked here way up the couch and kissed Alex.

“Good?” She asked tentatively.

Alex’s response was to pull Olivia to her and kiss her again. “I love you.”

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Olivia made her way back into the squad room after having lunch with Trey, Alex’s brother. She felt good about the opportunity he was offering her and that it was a bonafide job offer.

“How’d it go?”

She smiled at Elliot and nodded. “It’s a good deal El. It’s real and I could do some real good while taking care of my baby and still earning my own way.”

Elliot smiled at her. “Good.” He seemed to be choosing his words wisely. “Liv I know I haven’t been a big fan of you and Cabot, but I have to admit she seems to really love you.” He snorted. “And she’s a hell of a lot better than Kurt.”

Olivia smiled at him, knowing it’d cost him a lot to admit that. She walked over to him and messed up his hair. “Thanks for the approval…dad.”

Before he could counter, the distinct sound of heels could be heard clacking down the hall.

“Liv? How’d it go?”

“Well hello to you too Alex.” She grinned and pecked her on the cheek. Taking the blonde’s hand, she pulled her into the interrogation room. As soon as the door was shut she turned to Alex and looked at her expectantly. “Kiss me.”

Alex grinned and captured her girlfriend’s lips. “Well?”

“It’s a good deal Alex. I’m going to do it.”

Alex hugged her. “So…”

“Yes.”
“Yes?”

“Yes, I’ll marry you. Yes, I’ll marry you in Toronto this weekend.”

“Do you want to invite the guys?”

Olivia shook her head. “No. This is private; just us.” She smiled at Alex. “Unless you want to invite your brother and sister?”

“No, that’s fine. It can just be us. We can do a bigger do in Boston if you want?”

Olivia nodded. “That works for me.” The baby kicked and Alex rubbed Olivia’s belly. “Sears agrees.”

“Sears? The department store?”

“Guess that names out.”

Alex Cabot watched her lover eat with an amused expression. Olivia’s appetite had only gotten bigger as her pregnancy progressed. She was currently downing a massive hamburger, complete with bacon, cheese and guacamole dip. She had called Alex from the apartment and ordered her to bring home the messy burger and an extra large order of fries. She’d also requested a dozen cupcakes, which Alex had reluctantly agreed to buy.

“Whaw?” She managed to ground out between chewing her food.

“Nothing. You just look adorable wolfing down that burger.” She swiped a stray streak of sauce off of Olivia’s chin.

Olivia tossed the last of her burger into her mouth and chewed with intent. Swallowing she looked at Alex and smiled. “Food isn’t the only thing I’m hungry for Counselor.” To emphasize her point, she ran her foot up Alex’s inner thigh.

“I’d hate to deny a pregnant woman.”

Afterwards, as they lay tangled together, Olivia groaned. “Why did you let me eat so much Alex?”

“Let you? Liv, you’d have eaten my arm if I hadn’t brought home that burger!” She poked her lover in the side. “You just need to learn to control yourself!”

Olivia cut her eyes at Alex. She managed to roll onto her side and smiled at Alex. “Hey Alex?”

“Yeah?”

“Uh, I really, really enjoy our love making” Her voice trailed off.

“But?”

“It’s not a ‘but’, not really. More like a…well, a…” Growing frustrated, she pulled the sheet over her head. “Can we try some other things?”

Alex eased the sheet back down over Olivia’s face. “Such as?”

“You know…things!”

Alex smiled at her. “Do tell Miss Benson.”

Olivia blushed. “I don’t know! I’ve never been with a woman before you! I’m just curious.” Realizing how that might sound, she rushed to assure the blonde. “What I mean is that I want to try everything with you.” She looked away and asked, “Do you have any toys?”

“Not…not really. But I can always get some. What did you have in mind?”

Olivia shrugged. “I don’t know. You’re the one with all the experience.” She smirked at Alex.

“Well, we will be having a wedding night. I suppose I could put all my worldly lesbian experience to good use and come up with something.” She smiled and winked at Olivia. “Of course, I could just call up one of my ex’s and ask her….”

Olivia whacked her with a pillow. “You better not.” She slowly lowered the sheet covering her nude form, giving Alex a tantalizing view. “You’re mine.”

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She waited until Elliot had a mouth full of food before she told him about her upcoming nuptials.

“Alex and I are going to Toronto this weekend. We’re getting married.”

Elliot nearly choked and gasped for breath. After getting the bite down, he was speechless.

“Close your mouth or say something.”

“Married? You and Cabot?” He rubbed his forehead and looked at his bottled water. “I need something stronger.” He looked down at his half eaten sandwich and pushed it away. “Ok. So you and Cabot are going north and getting married. Ok. Ok. Well, I did say I wanted you to have somebody.” He shrugged. “Cabot’s not such a bad person. I know she loves you. OK. I’m good with this.”

Olivia smiled at him. “You are? Really?” He nodded. “Great! Listen, we aren’t inviting anybody. Not even her brother and sister. We’re gonna do it again in Boston and invite everybody then.”

“Ok. Hey, this mean you’re gonna be Olivia Cabot now?”

“I don’t know. Haven’t thought about it.” She scowled at him. “Why can’t she take my name?”

He laughed. “Oh Liv, you are SO the bitch in this relationship!” He ducked as a paper wad went flying by his ear.

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That Night

Alex found Olivia sitting in the dark on the couch.

“Liv?”

“Yeah?” She craned her neck and welcomed Alex’s kiss.

Alex came around and sat down next to her. “What are you doing?”

“Just savoring the moment. In two months there will be a tiny person demanding all of our time.”

Alex leaned over and kissed her lover’s belly. “Hey…?” She glanced up at Olivia to see what the name of the day was.

“Rupert.”

“Rupert? As in Murdoch? Oh hell no. Besides, I thought you were done with the R’s?”

“Yeah, I think I should go back to the S’s.” She ran her hand through Alex’s hair. “What do you think his last name should be?”

Alex sat up and pushed her glasses up her nose. “Well, technically he is a Moss, but he’s your baby. Do you want him to be a Benson?”

“Depends.”

“On?”

“What my last name is going to be. Elliot asked me today if I was going to become Olivia Cabot.” She smiled. “He also informed me that you’d never take my name. It seems I’m the ‘bitch’ in this relationship.”
“He’s a wise man.” She kissed Olivia. “Seriously, what do you want to do about last names? You can always do the hyphen thing.” She let that hang in the air before letting Olivia off the hook. “We could do ‘Cabot-Benson’ or you could be ‘Benson-Cabot’ and I’ll be ‘Cabot-Benson’ or some other variation?”

Olivia kissed her and played with the top button on her blouse. “Alex…”

The next morning

“Don’t forget to meet me at the bank at 1 pm today, ok?” The blonde bent and kissed Olivia who was slow getting up, which Alex attributed to their late night activities.

“Ok.”

“And after that we need to stop by the jewelers. We need to finalize our ring purchase.”

“Ok.”

“Can you call the Renaissance in Toronto and confirm our reservation?”

“Ok.”

Alex stopped and studied her soon to be wife. “And then I need you to strip naked and let me do you on the hood of a cruiser in Times Square.”

“O…hey!”

“Just checking. I’ll call you after court.” As an after thought she bent and kissed Olivia’s belly. Then she caught Olivia’s lips and when they parted she whispered, “Less than 24 hours and we’re in Toronto to get married Liv!”

Alex looked down at her sleeping lover whose head was resting on her shoulder. She kissed the crown of Olivia’s head and subconsciously rubbed her belly before watching the scenery speed by. The rhythmic rocking of the train had lulled Olivia to sleep before they’d even gotten outside the city limits, leaving Alex with ample time to study her lover.

Their day had been a busy one; between opening a joint bank account, confirming reservations and purchasing rings, Alex had also made a trip to a sex shop and received a visit from Elliot Stabler.

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Earlier in the day

“Come in.” Alex looked up and saw Elliot Stabler enter her office. “Detective.” Leaning back in her chair she put her hands behind her head and gave him ‘the look.’ “I assume you’ve come to have the heart-to-heart with me concerning your partner and our wedding?”

A bit surprised by her bluntness he managed to nod. “Look Alex…I’m not gonna pretend I’m all happy and PFLAG carrying about Liv goin’ gay for you, but I cal tell she loves you and I know you love her.” He studied his feet before continuing. “Just don’t…don’t hurt her. Ok?”

“I’m going to let your assessment of Liv’s sexuality and my role in it slide because I know how much you love and care for her. And because I know how you feel about her I also know we share the same opinion about Creepy Guy. Speaking of which, anything new on that front?” He shook his head. “Keep digging. Anyway, I don’t intend on hurting her of letting anyone, including you Elliot, hurt her ever again.” She pinned him with a look that made him squirm. “Elliot, I’m the one at risk for getting hurt here. Until that asshole signs away his babydaddy rights, I can’t become a legal part of this child’s life. If faced with keeping her child or me, I think we all know who’ll win that one. If Moss pushes it.” She looked down at her desk blotter and sighed. “And of course she could always decide this isn’t for her, that it was a reaction to stress or whatever. I’m putting it all out there for her Elliot because I promised myself if I ever got to come back after WP, that I’d live life on my terms.”

Elliot nodded. “As long as we’re clear.” She acknowledged him with a nod and he turned to leave. Pausing, he turned back to face her. “Alex, I know her and she’s never let anybody in like she’s let you. And she’s never, ever let somebody fuss over her before. That’s gotta count for somethin’, ok?”

She smiled at him. “Thanks Elliot.”

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“When is she due?”

Alex was pulled from her memory by an elderly woman’s voice.

“A little less than two months.” Alex feared the woman was going to start lecturing her on the evils of same sex couples based on the way she seemed to be studying them.

“Is this your first?”

“Uh, it’s her first, yes.”

The old woman gave her a knowing smile. “Dear, it’s ok. You are in love and she is carrying your child. I am not here to judge you. My grandson is gay and his partner is a delightful young man. Take care of her.” The woman stood to leave and smiled down at Alex. “I don’t want to intrude.”

Alex smiled after the woman and held Olivia’s hand a tiny bit tighter. They weren’t far from Toronto and she decided to rouse Olivia.

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Renaissance Hotel

“Wow Alex! I didn’t realize this was part of the stadium.” She entered their room ahead of Alex and gasped again when she realized they had a bi-level suite. “Oh my God! Are the Blue Jays in town this weekend?”

“Yep. And guess who they’re playing?”

“Now way! Not the Yankees?” Alex nodded. “Sweet!”

Alex grabbed her and pulled her into a kiss. “I was sort of hoping you’d be too busy with me to watch the game?” Seeing Olivia’s eyes widen she laughed. “I’m kidding Liv. There’s a game tonight and I thought we could order room service?” She waggled here eye brows. “Maybe we can give in to a little stadium love in front of the window?”

Olivia blushed furiously. “Are the windows tinted?” Alex laughed and then nodded. “Are they playing tomorrow night?”

“I don’t know, why?”

“Miss Cabot, what kind of woman do you take me for? I can’t give it up the night before I get married!”

Alex waved their marriage license in the air. “Then it’s a good thing we stopped by city hall on the way here. I’m sure we can find somebody to marry us before the game starts tonight.”

“Do you really want to get married right now?”

“We could. It would free up tomorrow. Give us time to check out Hanlan Beach .” She waggled her eye brows.

“I can do a nude beach.” At Alex’s surprised look she smiled. “Hey, it’s not like I’ll ever see any of those people again, right?”

Alex groaned at the thought of a pregnant, nude Olivia frolicking on the beach. She picked up the room phone and dialed the concierge. An hour later they were getting ready to be married by a justice of the peace in the hotel garden.

Alex had changed into her wedding clothes in a spare bathroom and stood waiting on Olivia with the justice. She was wearing a white, backless linen dress and had her hair up in a twist. The hotel had provided two employees, the event planner and a bell hop as witnesses. A light medley of music began to play and Alex turned to see Olivia walking toward her on the arm of the bell hop, carrying a bouquet of peach roses. She was also wearing a backless white dress made out of poplin. She had baby’s breath in her hair.

The two women smiled at each other and took in the other’s appearance. Alex leaned in and whispered to her bride, “You look sexy.”

“So do you.”

The justice cleared his throat and began the ceremony. Fifteen minutes later it was over and Alex was kissing Olivia for all she was worth. After they broke apart, the event planner ushered them to the hotel photographer and they took several photos before being sent in the direction of the Arriba restaurant where a small wedding cake awaited them.

They were announced upon entering and all the guests clapped and whistled for them. The waiter brought over a bottle of sparkling cider and two flutes. Several patrons stopped by to congratulate them as they ate dinner.

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As they sat on the lower level of the suite watching batting practice, Olivia sighed and held her hand up to the light.

“I can’t believe I’m married!”

“Me either.” Her smile faltered.

“What?”

“I know it’s silly, but I wish my mother were alive to see this. To see me so happy.”

Olivia nodded. “My relationship with my mother wasn’t always the best, but I always knew she loved me. I think she’d like to know I ended up with somebody I love and who loves me.”

Shaking off her sadness, Alex stood and started stripping, letting her dress hit the floor. She motioned for Olivia to stand up and helped her out of her dress.

“Come. I’ve waited long enough.”

She led her wife up to the bed and laid her down on it, kissing her the whole way.

“I love you Mrs. Cabot.”

“And I love you Mrs. Benson.”

Alex was trying to top Olivia with very little luck. It seemed as though she’d grown even more in the two days since they’d made love. Giving up, she started working her way down Olivia’s body, intent on pleasuring her first and taking her pleasure second. Seeing what was about to happen, Olivia stopped her.

“Let’s try and do this together. Get on your side and…well you know what to do.”

Alex propped a pillow beneath Olivia’s growing belly for support and then used another pillow for her own head, which was now lying next to her wife’s sex. She felt Olivia gently pushing her leg out of the way and when she felt hot breath on her own sex, she closed the distance to Olivia’s and darted her tongue out to taste her wife for the first time. Olivia did the same thing and even though she’d now tasted Alex at least a hundred times, this time was the sweetest.

Their lovemaking was slow, deliberate and delicious, ending with a shared orgasm. They made love twice more that night, but they never made it back downstairs to see the ballgame.

Alex was awakened by Olivia getting back into bed the next morning.

“Good morning Mrs. Cabot.”

“Good morning Mrs. Benson.”

They giggled and kissed each other for a long while. Finally Alex tried to pull away, but Olivia stopped her. “I’m horny.” She took Alex’s hand and placed it between her legs. “Do me with that thing you bought.”

“The thigh harness?” Olivia nodded. “Are you sure?” Again Olivia nodded. Alex rolled out of bed and retrieved it from her suitcase. She’d told Olivia about it the night before, but they’d opted for old-fashioned sex on their wedding night. Today however, it appeared that Olivia was looking to expand her lesbian horizons.

Grabbing the bottle of lube, she went into the bathroom and came out carrying a towel. At Olivia’s raised eyebrow she smiled. “It can get messy.”

“So you have used one before?”

“Not on the giving end; the receiving end. Didn’t care too much for it. Actually, I didn’t care too much for the person doing the giving. Poor thing, she reminded me of you and all I could think of the entire time was how I was cheating on you.” Alex shrugged. “She was the second and last brunette I dated. I switched to red heads after that.” Alex tightened the harness around her thigh and got behind Olivia.

“What are you doing?”

“Baby, with your belly, the only way I’m getting in is from behind.” Olivia tried to roll away from Alex. “Relax. I said from behind, not ‘in the behind.’”

Olivia giggled. “Sorry. I’ve just never had sex this way before. Either I’m on top or bottom, never from behind.”

Alex considered what she’d said. “Not even doggie style?”

“Nope.” Olivia had placed the pillow under her belly and was trying to figure out how she could help Alex get inside her.

“We’re going to change that tonight down in front of the windows.” With that she slipped into Olivia and slowly worked her way in and out of her wife, allowing both to get used to the feeling.

Alex whispered sweet nothings into Olivia’s ear as she increased the tempo and rhythm and brought her fingers around to Olivia’s clit. She pressed down on the nub and bit her ear lobe, bringing Olivia over the edge with Alex’s name on her lips.

Alex rolled her onto her back and cleaned her while kissing and hugging her. After she finished, she took everything into the bathroom and returned to bed. She was content to just hold Olivia, but the brunette had other ideas.

“What?”

“Sit on my face.”

“Liv! I can’t do that! What If I fall backwards onto your belly? Hurt you or the baby?”

“Poppycock. Sit on my face. I want to know what it’s like to have your juices running down into my mouth as my tongue is pushed up into you. I want your juices all over my face. Please.”

Alex had gotten a mental image of riding Olivia’s tongue and now she wanted to experience it for real. Shoving her reservations aside, she carefully eased over Olivia’s face and began riding the other woman’s tongue. She could feel the wetness leaving her and looked down to watch Olivia clean it from her. The sight drove her wild and with a few more licks she came hard, covering Olivia with all of her juices. Afraid she was going to lose her balance and topple backwards onto her lover, she, rolled to the side and curled into a fetal position.

“Fuck. My God that was good.” She felt Olivia’s hand on her arm, tugging her. Rolling over she kissed her wife. “I’ve never done that before.”

“Really?”

“Really. My God I love you.” She kissed Olivia again. “Let’s go shower and then head to the beach, ok?”

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Harlan Beach

Neither woman had packed a swimsuit, so Alex had bought them tourist t-shirts and shorts at the hotel gift shop. Now they were sitting on a large beach blanket trying to decide when to take their clothing off.

Alex went first, though she did try to hide behind a large beach tote they’d brought along with them. She silently urged Olivia on and watched as her wife boldly stood and dropped her clothing, seemingly unashamed or embarrassed. Alex quickly pulled her down and slathered sunscreen all over her body.

She was kissing her wife’s belly and teasing her about her belly button being an outie now when someone started calling to her.

“Emily? Emily is that you?”

Hearing the voice stopped Alex and she glanced up at Olivia. “Damn.” She was trying to cover both herself and Olivia with very little luck.

The redhead came up to where Alex was now hovering over Olivia. “Emily Warner. It is you.” The woman looked pissed. “How dare you leave like a thief in the night! You left me holding the bag on that over priced condo we rented! I thought you loved me?”

Alex gave her a tight smile and then looked back at Olivia. The woman seemed to see her for the first time and frowned. “Who the hell are you?”

Alex started to speak but Olivia stopped her. “Det. Olivia Benson. And you are?”

“I’m Shanna Walker, Emily’s girlfriend. Or at least I was until she left without calling or anything!” The red head’s face matched her hair.

“Now Shanna…I sent you the money to cover at least a year’s rent on that condo.” She looked between Olivia and Shanna. “And it was a two bedroom condo and we weren’t that serious! And I never told you I loved you!”

“Obviously not.” She looked at Olivia again and seemed to see her belly for the first time. “You’re pregnant?”

Olivia smiled at her and held up her ring. “And newly married to ‘Emily’ here.”

Shanna gawked at Olivia for what Alex thought was more than a little too long.

“Shanna, here eyes are further north and if you don’t move yours that way soon, something very bad might just happen.”

Shanna focused on Alex and let her eyes linger on the blonde’s nude form. The longer she looked at Alex, the angrier Olivia became.

“Hey Shanna, the same thing goes for Alex when it comes to your eyes.” She was trying to get up, but her size and the instability of the sand made that impossible.

The redhead decided to try one last thing. “Say…we could all get what we want….”

She toppled over as Olivia’s foot shot out and tripped her. “Hey Shanna? Two’s company, three’s a crowd, got it?”

They collapsed into a fit of giggles as the now embarrassed redhead stalked off. As they calmed down, Alex grew very quiet.

“Liv, it wasn’t serious with her. Not at all. And the condo really was more of a roommate thing.”

Olivia kissed her. “Hey Alex? It’s ok. It’s not like I thought you were a virgin you know?” Seeing Alex flinch at her words, she tried to soften the words. “I’m glad you weren’t a lesbian virgin Alex.”

“Why?”

“Because if you had been, we wouldn’t be here now. I know I wouldn’t have the guts to approach you and would you have had the confidence to pursue me, this if you’d never ‘done it’ while in WP?”

Alex captured her lips in a searing kiss. “I love you. And I want you and while gay marriage may be legal in Canada, I’m pretty sure public sex is still out. How about we head back to the hotel, take a long hot soak and then steam up those windows?”

As they gathered their things to leave, one red head and one blonde watched them from afar.

“We should say hello.”

Serena grabbed Casey’s hand. “No we shouldn’t. They either are or are about to be married. Nobody was invited.”

Casey looked more than a little upset at the news and Serena huffed at her.

“Hello! I’m your girlfriend and I’m here with you. Whatever you feel for Olivia needs to die right now! Right here Casey Novak or else we are going home separately. Got it?”

Casey turned to face Serena. “I don’t have the hot’s for her. Or Alex for that matter. I was just thinking it would be nice to be married. To be loved like that.” She held Serena’s gaze.

“You are loved like that Casey.”

In the parking lot Alex watched the two women kiss. She’d spotted them almost as soon as she and Olivia had arrived, but knew Serena wouldn’t bother them. She did a fist pump when she saw them kiss. It was one of those relationship- defining kisses and she knew Casey Novak would never look at Olivia just a little too long again.

“What are you doing?” Olivia leaned in closer and said, “Hey, isn’t that….”

“Yes.”

“Do you want to…”

“No.” She turned and kissed Olivia. “I think they just fell in love for the final time.”

Olivia smiled at her. “I suppose your fist pump was because you are so happy for them?” Alex shrugged. “Or is it because you no longer have to view Casey as a threat?”

“She kissed you and touched your breast.”

Olivia nuzzled her neck. “And you never had anything to worry about.”

“That soak in the tub is sounding better and better. Let’s go.”

Olivia sat in the v of Alex’s legs in the oversized bathtub. They had ordered room service after getting back from the beach and were eating the last of their fruit plate as they soaked. Alex was currently feeding Olivia grapes by dangling them above her head.

“Baby? It’s time to start thinking about the nursery, don’t you think?”

Olivia was trying to grab a grape with her teeth but managed to ground out, “Yep.”

“Well?”

Frustrated at her inability to snag a grape and irritated with her wife’s refusal to hold the bunch still, she swore. “Alex! I want my grapes.” The blonde pulled one off and plopped it into her mouth. Olivia chewed it up and after swallowing, she answered Alex’s question. “Classic Pooh.”

“Oh?” Olivia nodded against her. “What…”

“Christopher Robin green for the walls, white nursery furniture and a border around the wall.” She turned so she could see Alex’s face. “If that’s ok with you?”

Alex smiled at her. “That’s perfect. When do you want to get started?”

“Soon.”

“Ok.” Alex kissed her. “Are we doing LaMaze?”

Olivia laughed. “We aren’t doing anything Alex! It’s my body he’s going to come tearing out of!” Alex rubbed the wash cloth over her face, silencing the brunette. “Ok! Yes, I would like to try and have him naturally. But I reserve the right to scream for drugs if it goes on too long.” She turned and captured Alex’s lips. “Think you can help me with the heavy breathing?”

Alex pulled the plug on the tub. “Let’s go find out.”

They were each wearing big fluffy robes with nothing on underneath as they lounged on the king size bed watching TV. It was still a couple of hours before the game started and Olivia had decided against doing anything that required leaving the suite as she was tired.
Alex wasn’t surprised when Olivia fell asleep and she joined her wife for a mid-afternoon nap.

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Olivia shook Alex awake and smiled down at the blonde. “Come on, they’re taking batting practice!” She watched as her wife bounced through the suite, chirping on and on about the Yankees and sex. Shaking her head she rolled out of bed and followed her wife to the lower level of the suit.

She swallowed hard as she found Olivia standing in the nude of the viewing area naked. Looking over her shoulder, the brunette gave Olivia a million-dollar smile and motioned for her to come closer.

“Lose the robe Counselor.” Alex did as she was told and soon they were standing side by side in the nude. Olivia glanced over at her and smiled. Taking her wife’s hand, she led her over to the window. “I brought the harness down.” She shyly pointed in the direction of a chair. Alex followed her line of sight and went to retrieve it.

“And what would you like for me to do with this?”

Olivia slowly turned so that she was facing Alex. “Fuck me seven ways to Sunday of course! If the guys are going to look at me like I’m getting it that way, well, I want to actually be getting it that way!” To emphasize her point she bent over with her ass in the air and wiggled it as best she could at Alex.

“Oh my.” Alex licked her lips and ran both hands over Olivia’s ass. “Baby, I think we should give you some help.”

“Huh?”

“Stand up.” When she’d done that, Alex walked her over to the window and turned her around so that her back was pressed against the glass. Alex sank to her knees and nudged Olivia’s legs apart.

“But Alex, I want…”

“Hush. We will, but you need to be good and wet for this baby. Don’t worry, I plan on fucking you seven ways to Sunday as you say.” She kissed the inside of Olivia’s thigh. “I also plan on making love to you tonight.” She resumed her journey north to Olivia’s center and soon had her wife pinned to the window between her tongue and the glass. The deeper she went, the more Olivia begged for until she finally crashed over the edge. Alex had to help her move over to a chair.

Alex held her in the wingback while Olivia tried to recover. She clung to her wife like a rag doll and welcomed the blanket Alex pulled around them. She settled her head into the crook of Alex’s neck and sighed.

“Good?”

“The best.” She kissed Alex’s cheek. “I mean it Alex; sex has never really meant more than a release for me, but with you it’s different. It feels different.”

Alex kissed her forehead. “Me too Liv, me too.”

They sat that way for a while longer before Olivia began to tickle and tease Alex’s nipple. Growing bolder, she bent and kissed the coral tipped nub and drug her tongue across it’s flat surface, drawing a moan from Alex.

Still paying attention to her wife’s breasts, she said, “I wish I could use the harness thing on you.” Pulling back from Alex’s breasts, she smiled. “I don’t think my size will let me do you with it Mrs. Benson.” She left Alex’s lap and settled on her knees in front of the blonde. “Open wide.” Alex let her legs fall open and watched as Olivia made love to her with her mouth. Growing bold, she pressed against Alex’s other opening with her finger and slipped inside, bringing Alex’s hips off the chair.

“Liv!”

Afraid she’d done something wrong, Olivia abruptly pulled back. “Alex?”

“Don’t stop! Fuck!”

She resumed what she had been doing and was soon wearing Alex’s juices all over her face. Alex pulled at her until she was face to face with the brunette and proceeded to lick and clean herself from the brunette’s face.

Olivia resumed her position in Alex’s lap and in a tiny voice she asked, “Was that ok? You screamed when I went…back door.”

Alex held her tighter. “Oh baby, that was beyond ok. I’ve never let anybody do that before. But I’ve always wanted to.” She kissed Olivia again. “I love you.”

They sat like that until Olivia’s bladder was telling her it needed to be emptied. When she returned, she found Alex standing at the window, watching the game.
“It’s the bottom of the 7th.”

“And you still haven’t taken me from behind.”

Alex smiled at her and proceeded to bring the wingback chair over in front of the window. She grabbed the thigh harness and strapped it onto her leg. Taking the bottle of lube, she slathered the dildo up and motioned for Olivia to come to her.

“What?”

Alex positioned her so she was sitting on her non-harnessed thigh and began to kiss and rub Olivia’s neck. She brought her hands to Olivia’s breast and began to tease her nipples. Olivia tried to turn so she was facing Alex, but the blonde stopped her. Her next journey was to Olivia’s center where she rubbed and stroked her quickly swelling clit.

“Alex…”

“Shhh. Almost baby. Almost.”

As she felt the first signs of wetness from Olivia, she shifted her wife so that she was almost standing and then guided her down onto the dildo. The reverse angle stimulated Olivia in a completely new way and she threw her head back as Alex began an agonizingly slow rhythm within her. They continued that way for a while and when Alex thought Olivia was close, she moved them, seemlessly, into a semi standing position and placed Olivia’s hands against the window for support. She then began pushing into her wife harder and faster. She finally reached around and touched Olivia’s engorged, over sensitized clit, sending her into orbit.

“OhmyfuckingGod!”

Alex wrapped her up from behind and carefully withdrew from her. She helped her back over to the chair and eased her down in it, where she covered her in a blanket.

When she returned from cleaning up she found Olivia curled into the chair a sated smile on her face. “Game’s over.”

Alex smiled. “Who won?”

“I did.”

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2 Weeks Later

Alex, Munch, Fin, Elliot and Simon were all trying to turn the spare bedroom into a Winnie-The-Pooh wonderland. Everybody had a paintbrush and was trying not to step on each other. They’d ordered pizza and banished Olivia to take a quick nap a little over an hour ago.

They were all laughing and joking as slowly the room was going from stark white to a mint green color. Alex had decided they could just pay somebody to put up the border after Munch and Fin had nearly gotten into a fight over how straight the border was.

Awakened by their laughing, Olivia now stood in the doorway rubbing her eyes. Alex caught sight of her first and rushed to her side, placing a quick kiss on her lips. Olivia had other ideas and held her to her for a much longer, more involved kissed. By the time they pulled apart, three men were adjusting themselves and Simon was punching those same three guys on the arm.

“That’s my sister.”

Munch cleared his throat, looked at Simon and proclaimed, “Yeah, well, we’ve known her longer and that was just down right hot.”

Alex gave him a nasty look and hugged Olivia who was wearing maternity over halls. “Sleep well?” Olivia nodded and surveyed the room.

“Looking good.” She leaned in closer and smiled at Elliot. “You missed a spot.” Before he could answer the doorbell rang and Olivia went to answer it. She opened the door without looking through the peep hole and was surprised to find not a pizza delivery guy, but a man in a suit.

“Are you Olivia Benson?”

“Yes.”

“Consider yourself served.” He shoved a blue tri-fold piece of paper into her hand and quickly walked away.

She stood there in shock, looking at the paper. She finally gathered the energy to open it and as she read she became angrier by the moment. Turning, she screamed for Alex, who came running, with four grown men in tow.

“What is it?” She took the paper from Olivia, already knowing it was a summons based on its color. As she read, she too became angry. “Bastard.” She handed it to Munch who was closest to her as she took Olivia in her arms.

“Olivia? What is it?”

Alex gave Simon a weak smile and clued him in. “Kurt is suing for visitation and to be named as Tanner’s father.”

“Chance.”

All the men and Alex said, “What?” at the same time.

“I’m up to the C’s now. Chance, not Tanner.”

“She’s trying out different names. Apparently she’s zipped through the rest of the alphabet since yesterday when it was Tanner. Anyway, he’s demanding a paternity test to prove he’s the father right after birth.”

Just then the pizza guy showed up and Fin paid him and ended up giving him a big tip just to get him to go away. They all sat around the coffee table in the living room discussing this latest development.

After they’d left, Alex and Olivia lay on the couch holding each other.

“What happens now Alex?”

“We fight Liv. Even if he gets visitation, there are still things we can do to limit his legal access to…Chance.” She held her wife tighter and kissed her on the head. “I’ll take care of this Liv; don’t worry.”

Needing to change the subject, Olivia went into baby mode. “When is the furniture supposed to be delivered?”

“End of the week.”

She nodded against Alex. “Hey Alex?”

“Yes?”

“Can we go lie down for a bit? I’m exhausted. And I want you with me.”

Alex watched over Olivia until she fell into a deep sleep and then she eased out of bed and went to call Elliot.

“Stabler.”

“It’s Alex. Have you been able to dig up anything on Moss? Anything at all?”

He sighed. “No. He seems pretty clean. Just a few parking tickets, which he’s paid, and not much beyond that. After we left you guys, Munch offered to contact a friend of his who’s some kind of financial guru. I told him to go ahead. I didn’t think you’d mind.”

“No, I don’t mind. Let’s just keep digging. There has to be something we can use as a bargaining chip.”

“Will do.” There was an awkward silence that Elliot finally broke. “Hey Alex?”

“Yes?”

“Thanks for taking care of her, ok? She means a lot to me and the rest of the guys as well. I…I know you love her Alex.”

“Thank you Elliot. Please let me know if and when you find anything.”

She went back into the bedroom and slid beneath the covers once again. She wasn’t surprised when Olivia rolled to her. She soon had a chest full of Olivia. Just as she was about to doze off again, a short, swift kick from Olivia’s belly startled her. The brunette grabbed her hand and held it to her belly.

“Feel that?”

Alex laughed. “How could I not?”

They lay like that for a while with the baby kicking sporadically. Alex leaned in and kissed Olivia, who deepened the kiss. Alex began slowly moving her hands all over Olivia’s body, drawing sighs and moans from the brunette.

“I want you Alex.”

“Good, because I want you too.” She began playing with Olivia’s buttons.

“But Alex, I’m just so tired. Can we just cuddle?”

Alex looked down at her and smiled. “Of course baby.”

“You’re not mad?”

“No. Why would I be mad?” She began rubbing Olivia’s body again, only this time in a soothing, not an arousing way.

“Because we haven’t been together in almost a week and well….” She shrugged.

Alex stopped her movements and kissed Olivia. “Baby don’t ever feel obligated to have sex with me. Ever. You’re seven and a half months pregnant! Sometimes all I need is to hold you or kiss you. I don’t need mind blowing sex every day baby.”

“Mind blowing? You think our sex is mind blowing?” She was looking a bit surprised which turned into a bit of embarrassment.

“Yes Olivia, when we make love it is mind blowing. At least for me.” She was now looking at Olivia questioningly. “Is it not for you?”

“Oh God yes! Alex I’ve never felt the things I feel when we kiss or even just touch, let alone when we make love.” She grew shy and looked away. “I just wasn’t sure I was enough for you? That I was…pleasing you?”

“Liv?”

“Well, I’ve never done this before Alex! I don’t know if I’m getting it right or not and while you’ve been patient with me, I’m just…well, I know you’d never lie to me, but I also don’t think you’d ever be cruel about my sexual ability.”

Alex positioned herself so that she was above Olivia, as best she could be. She studied her wife’s face and looked into her eyes. She saw love, lust and a bit of fear.

“What else did he say to you Olivia?”

Playing dumb she answered, “Who?”

“Kurt. Or whoever else has given you a complex about your sexual prowess.”

“Alex, all the men I’ve been with, with the exception of Cassidy, all had the same basic opinion of my sexual skills; a decent lay, but a bit inhibited.” She sighed. “He, Kurt, wanted to try a few things that made me highly uncomfortable, so I refused.”

Alex couldn’t help but ask, “What kinds of things?”

“Just…just things, ok? I don’t want to talk about them.”

“Olivia? Liv, look at me.” Sure she had the brunette’s attention to told her, “Olivia have I asked you to do anything that made you uncomfortable?” The brunette shook her head. “Ok, if you’re sure?” This time she nodded. “Then I need you to promise that you’ll tell me if I ever ask, suggest or otherwise try to engage in any sexual activity that makes you uncomfortable, ok?”

“Ok.”

“If it’s not right for both of us, then it’s not right for either of us.”

Olivia smiled at her and then kissed her. “I love you.” She gave her a quick kiss. “Alex? Thank you for taking care of me. I feel loved by you in a way I’ve never felt before.” She stretched and then rubbed against her wife.

Alex closed the book and looked down at Olivia, who was smiling up at her. They had started the nightly ritual of Alex reading to the baby before the weekend they’d consummated their relationship. Olivia would sit in the v of Alex’s legs and relax against her while she read to the baby.

After she’d finished reading for the night, Alex would place her hands on top of Olivia’s which were on top of her belly, and they’d send ‘happy’ thoughts to their little boy. Neither was sure this was a valid practice, but it seemed to bring them closer.

Tonight however, Olivia had another type of closeness in mind. It was the first night in over week that she had extra energy and she wanted Alex.

“Sweetie?”

“Yes?”

“I’m not tired at all Alex and it has been 10 days since we were last together.” She sifted against Alex’s center.

“Well now, let’s not waste all this energy!”

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Alex came out of the bathroom and smiled at the sight of her wife sprawled out on their bed. She was naked and the sheets were thrown around her haphazardly. Alex took in her body and felt a new flush of arousal.

Olivia rolled her head to the side and gave Alex a lazy smile. “See something you like?”

Alex walked back over to the bed and climbed in. “Definitely.”

Olivia sighed. “I’m still not very tired Alex.” She waggled her eye brows. “Can we…would you…use it? Please?”

Confused, Alex gave a slight shake of her head. “Use what?”

Olivia motioned in the direction of the night stand. “It.”

Alex smiled at her and reached into the drawer and pulled out the thigh harness. Alex began preparing the harness and Olivia rolled onto her side.

Alex slid in behind Olivia and began fondling her breasts and whispering to her. “You really do love this, don’t you?” Olivia nodded against her and wiggled her butt in anticipation. Finding her wife more than a little wet, Alex eased the dildo into her wife and smiled at the contented sigh that escaped her wife.

It wasn’t long before Olivia was falling over the edge and Alex was holding her. The blonde went to move and Olivia stopped her by holding her in place.

“Stay.”

Alex stopped moving and nuzzled Olivia’s neck. “You really like using this, don’t you?” Olivia nodded. Alex held her for another minute, trying to sort out how she was going to ask the next question. “What is it about the dildo and harness that you like Olivia?”

“What?”

“Why do you like this way of making love so much?” What Alex really wanted to know was if the dildo was just a substitute for dick, but was unsure of how to ask Olivia without upsetting her.

Olivia considered her answer carefully, unsure of how to express herself. She pulled Alex’s arm more tightly around her and sighed.

It’s not about dick Alex.”

“I never…”

“Yes you did Alex, and that’s ok, but that’s not why I like using the harness and dildo.”

“Ok, then why do you? I don’t particularly care Olivia, I’m just curious.”

“Alex I clip on my badge and gun every morning and go to work in a male dominated field. I have had to be strong and seemingly made of steel around those same men in order to gain respect. With the exception of you Alex, all of my lovers have wanted that same tough woman in bed. And because I work sex crimes, they all think I want to try out some of the stuff I’ve seen. And because of that, I’ve never felt secure enough to just let go. To be me in bed.” She took a deep breath and finished. “I like to lose control Alex. I like to know I can give you control and you won’t hurt me or humiliate me. Knowing you’re driving the car, so to speak, arouses me in a way I’ve never been aroused before. When you’re in me with that, you have complete power and control Alex. You! And that excites me.” She turned her head so she could see Alex’s eyes. “I trust you.”

Alex captured her lips and smiled at her. “Oh Liv! I love you.”

Olivia pulled back. “And now I want to taste you! Sit on my face Alex.”

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Later that day

“Benson.”

“I thought you married a hot, blonde assistant DA?”

“I did, but have you seen the line at the DMV to change your name? Anyway, to what do I owe this call?”

Alex smiled. She loved the banter she and Olivia often engaged in. “You’re hot, blonde ADA of a wife just had the Lamaze mat delivered, so we are good to go tonight.”

“Are you sure you’re still up for this Miss Cabot?”

“As long as they don’t show that damn birthing film again! Are you sure you don’t want drugs?”

Olivia laughed. “I think I’m still good with doing this the natural way.” She looked over at the carnations sitting on her desk. “I got my flowers, thank you very much.”

“Just wanted to let you know how loved you are.”

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“Stabler.”

“Elliot, it’s Alex. Can you talk?”

“Yeah, Liv is in the bathroom. Again.”

Alex smiled at the vision of her wife waddling to the bathroom. The frequency with which she now had to go to the bathroom seemed to be every five minutes, at least according to Olivia. The good news was that it was taking her longer and longer to finish and get back each time she went.

“How many times today?”

“More than you want to know about. So, what’s on your mind?”

“Elliot, do you know a good PI? Or can you pull some strings and get Kurt Moss’ phones dumped?”

“Maybe, why?”

“Something Liv said to me last week. It’s been bothering me.” She looked around the street afraid some passerby might be listening. “Elliot, I think he has some sort of twisted sexual thing going on. If my hunch is right, this might just give us the bargaining chip we need to get him out of Gunnar’s life.”

“Gunnar? Damn, can’t she decide on a name?”

“Hey, yesterday it was Friedrich! Can you imagine? Anyway, can you set something up? I’m on my way inside to get her. We have Lamaze tonight.”

Seeing his partner waddling toward him he smiled and affirmed that he’d see what he could do. His smile was short lived as he saw Kurt Moss moving toward Olivia. Swearing, he began moving toward her as well.

“Olivia!” They both called at the same time.

Surprised to hear her name in stereo, Olivia turned to see first Kurt and then Elliot approaching her.

“Kurt?”

“Olivia. Can we talk?”

She sighed and waddled over to a bench in the hall and sat down, knowing this was not going to be a quick conversation. She also noted that Elliot was now hovering and waved him away.

“It’s fine Elliot.”

Remembering that Alex said she was right outside the building, he went to try and intercept her.

“What do you want Kurt?”

He sat down beside her. “How are you Olivia?” He patted her belly and smiled at her. “I don’t even know what you’re having.”

She removed his hand from her belly. “It’s a boy Kurt. Again, what do you want?”

“A son. We’re having a son.”

“’We’ aren’t having anything Kurt. Alex and I are having a son. You? You just donated sperm to the cause!”

“Olivia…”

“Back off Moss!” A very angry Alex Cabot was glaring at him with Elliot Stabler bringing up the rear.

“Miss Cabot isn’t it?”

“Mrs. Cabot-Benson.” She took Olivia’s hand and held it up for him to see. “We’ve been married almost a month.”

“It’s not legal.”

She advanced on him and in a low, deadly calm voice she said, “It is in Canada , Massachusetts , New Jersey and now California . I’ll marry her in every state it’s legal in and some that it’s not if I have to.” She pushed her finger into his chest. “Stay the hell away from my wife.”

She turned back to Olivia and smiled. “Baby, you ok?” Not waiting for an answer she gave Moss a dirty look and then turned back to Olivia. “Let’s go before we’re late for Lamaze.”

Olivia took her hand and smirked at Kurt as they made their way out of the station. She gave a small smile to Elliot and then joined Alex in the elevator.

Kurt watched them go and then turned back to Elliot. “When did all of this happen?”

“While you were sleeping.”

He left a very bewildered Kurt Moss behind.

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LaMaze Class

“Breath in and breathe out.”

Alex was supporting Olivia in the V of her legs, running her hands over the burgeoning belly of her wife in a soothing manner. They watched the instructor for more instructions and began the focusing exercises. The class ended with a discussion on how to limit tearing in the mother.

Olivia smiled as Alex looked a little queasy at the description and took her wife’s hand. “It’ll be ok Alex.” The blonde managed a weak nod. “Besides, imagine the fun we can have doing the daily massages to my vulva!”

Alex leaned in and whispered, “Maybe we should massage my vulva too?”

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Alex had insisted on stopping at the store and picking up all the supplies they’d need for their ‘homework.’ She had told Olivia that as a child she’d been one of those who always did her homework on Friday after school instead of Sunday night. She had no intentions of falling behind as an adult.

After they’d done their homework and then some that night, Olivia asked Alex about the Kurt situation.

“Olivia, he is this baby’s biological father and I’m trying to respect your desire for the baby, Harold, which is a really bad name by the way, to at least know who he is.” She stopped and considered her next words very carefully. “I just…well he’s a prick Olivia. He rejected you and the baby the minute he found out. And then he decided he did want to be a part of all this. And now? Now he’s running around hiring attorney’s and the what not.” She took her wife’s hands. “Is it fair to any child to have a wishy-washy parent? Is that what you want for Harry?”

“What I want Alex is for this child to have two parents who love him and want him.” She took the blonde’s hand. “I have that with you.” She considered her words and pressed ahead. “I also want for this baby to know who his father his. Who makes up the other half of his genes? It’s important Alex, trust me. Do you know how many times I wondered where my dark skin comes from? If I looked anything at all like my father? What medical issues might be awaiting me?” She swallowed hard. “I would never choose that for my child. I guess what I want is to have my cake and eat it too. I want you and me to raise him and be his parents, but I also want to know that when he asks questions about his origins, I can tell him and maybe even show him one day if he wants.”

Alex considered her words and nodded. “Ok then. We’ll do whatever it takes to make that happen.”

Olivia reached for her. “I want you so badly right now, but sweetie I’m just too tired!”

Alex cuddled up to her. “It’s ok baby. I know you’re mine.”

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Law Office of Casey Novak

“Alex, please, come in.”

“Thanks for seeing me Casey.” The blonde looked around the office and decided it was decorated in typical Casey style, which meant, no real style at all.

“I assume this about Olivia and Kurt?” Alex nodded. “You know I can’t discuss this with you.”

Alex pinned her with a look. “Cut the crap Casey. Put aside the fact that you were a mediocre ADA and your pent up lust for Olivia and focus on what’s important. And that Casey is this baby.” She took out a sheet of paper and handed it to Casey. “I want you to hire this guy and spare no expense. Here’s a blank check. Just let me know how much it is.” Calming down a bit she leaned back in and looked at Casey. “This is important to me Casey. I’m sorry about what I said. I know you love Serena.” She looked down and then back up. “She’s never seemed happier. She’s my best friend.”

Neither woman mentioned the fact that Alex hadn’t apologized for the mediocre ADA slam.

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Alex found Olivia sitting in the nursery that night and took a moment to admire her wife. She was fairly large and sitting in the rocking chair they’d bought for the room. She was rocking back and forth and humming.

“You look beautiful.”

“Hey. I didn’t hear you come in.” She motioned for the blonde to join her.

Alex sat before her on her knees. “How are you feeling today?”

“Tired.” She played with Alex’s hair. “I swung by the doctor’s office this afternoon. She wants to see me for a full check-up in the morning. Can you come?”

“Yes. Is something wrong?”

“Nope. I’m just so tired these days Alex. I never thought I’d say this, but I’m ready for maternity leave!”

Alex raised an eyebrow. “Really?” The brunette nodded. “Wait. Listen? Is that the end of the world as we know it I hear?”

“Ha ha. If you were ever this pregnant you wouldn’t be joking!” She cocked her head and studied Alex.

“What?”

“Do you want to have a baby?”

Alex carefully responded, “I think I want to see how I do with this one before jumping into being pregnant.” She rubbed Olivia’s ‘Buddha belly’ as she’d come to think of it. “Would that bother you? If I were?”

Olivia shook her head. “No. In fact, I think you’d look incredibly sexy with a belly as big as mine.”

“Come on Mama, let’s get you in bed.”

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The Next Day

Alex had dropped Olivia off at home as the doctor had ordered her to take maternity leave effective immediately. Surprisingly the brunette hadn’t uttered a word in protest and Alex was mildly concerned about that.

She made her way to the station, intent on finding Elliot and hoping he or the PI had found something, anything to give them some leverage against Kurt Moss. Just as she was pulling into the garage her phone rang.

“Cabot.”

“It’s Elliot. I think we may have something, Where are you?”

“In the garage. I’ll be right up.”

Elliot and the PI he’d recommended for the job were waiting for her as she exited the elevator. They pulled her into an interrogation room.

“What?”

The PI shoved a sheaf of papers at Alex and pointed to several highlighted areas. As she read he took out a folder and produced several black and white photos which he also shoved at her.

“Oh my God.” She examined the photo more closely. “Is she Asian? She can’t be any older than 15 or 16.”

The Ledger

Alex and Elliot were waiting on Kurt Moss to see them when Alex’s cell phone rang.

“Cabot.”

“Hey. Where are you, it’s after 5?”

Looking at Elliot, she grimaced. She had yet to lie to Olivia and she didn’t want to start now, but she also didn’t want to upset her wife. She settled on a half lie.

“Just finishing up on a possible lead in a new case.” It was true; if Kurt was engaging in what amounted to child prosecution, Alex would certainly prosecute him.

“Oh. Well, when do you think you might be home?”

Alex looked at her watch and then at Elliot who shrugged. “I should be there within the hour. Why? Is everything ok?”

Olivia sighed. “Yeah, I’m just bored and tired. And I miss you.”

Alex smiled. “I miss you too. Why don’t you take a nap and then when I get home we can hit that baby store around the corner? Stock up on some more onesie’s.”

Olivia smiled at the sound of her wife’s voice and replied, “Sounds like a plan, Stan.”

Just then Kurt Moss came out of his office and motioned for them to come in. Alex ended the call and with Elliot in tow, she marched into his office.

“Elliot, Alex. What can I do for you? Is Olivia ok?”

“It’s Det. Stabler and as for Liv, you should really ask her wife how she’s doing.”

“Touche.” He then turned his attention to Alex. “I assume Olivia isn’t in the hospital or you wouldn’t be here?”

“No, she’s just fine.” She wanted to add, ‘no thanks to you,’ but refrained. Instead, she took the papers and photos out of her briefcase and shoved them at Moss. “Care to explain these?”

He took the documents and then smiled at them both after going through them.

“You think I’m frequenting a child prostitute?” He laughed, which raised the ire of both Alex and Elliot. “Relax. I assure you I am not paying for the services of a child prostitute or any prostitute for that matter. Sorry to burst your little bubble, but I have just finished a book on the Asian sex trade in New York City and illegal immigrants. This girl, yes she is a prostitute, but she is also my source for this book.” He enjoyed the pale pallor of Alex Cabot as his words sunk in. “It’s this young girls memoir of her journey to the promised land as told to me.”

Having recovered slightly, Alex asked, “So it’s non-fiction?” He nodded. “I’ll need to speak to the girl myself. I assume you have her contact info?”

He looked at the clock. “If you two can wait a few minutes I’ll have her come in before she goes home for the day.” At Alex and Elliot’s surprised look he smirked. “She is a gifted young woman and wants to be a journalist. I have given her a job in our newsroom. It doesn’t pay much, but it beats turning tricks.”

10 Minutes Later

“CiCi, this is Det. Stabler and ADA Cabot. They’d like to ask you some questions about your former line of work.”

The girl’s eyes got big and she stepped behind Kurt. In fairly good English, she replied, “Yes? What I do you for?”

Elliot stepped forward and took over questioning the girl. “CiCi, did you help Mr. Moss with his book?”

The girl glanced nervously between Elliot, Kurt and Alex. “Yes.”

Elliot continued to question her and the girl remained very nervous, despite several assurances from both of them that she was not in any trouble. Alex watched her closely, feeling that something wasn’t ringing true with her.

“I’ll need verification from your publisher. And a copy of the galley’s if you have it?”

Kurt scribbled down a name and number and handed it to her. He then went to his desk drawer and pulled out the galley for his new book. He handed it to Alex.

Alex handed the young Asian girl her card and told her to call if anything in her story changed. She gave a nod to Kurt on their way out and joined Elliot in the elevator.

“Well that was a cluster fuck.”

“I don’t know Elliot. Something about her demeanor bothers me. Something’s not right.” She looked down at the galley in her hands and gave it to Elliot. “Read this tonight and see if it add’s up, please.”

He looked at her and then the book. “Me?”

“I can’t very well read this in bed with your partner right beside me, can I?”

XXXXXXXXX

What’s in Stork Baby Shop

Alex and Olivia had been power shopping for the past hour and were now ready to check out. Olivia was sure that ‘Kellar’ now had enough clothing to last him until his first birthday, but Alex had argued that he would grow quickly and therefore he needed many items of clothing.

She had plunked down her credit card and was relieved when Olivia hadn’t made a fuss over it. The brunette had been reluctant to let Alex pay for anything baby related before they were married and had gotten only marginally better about it after their marriage. Alex respected that Olivia wanted to maintain her independence, but she also wanted to be able to freely provide for her family.

Afterwards they stopped for ice cream and Alex jokingly asked her if she wanted any pickles to go with it. The brunette ‘ha-ha’d’ and then swatted at her. She did however turn the tables on her wife.

“I’m not in the mood for pickles Alex, but I am in the mood for something else.” She smiled at her wife.

Alex wasted no time getting them home and once they were through the door, she kissed her wife soundly and with intent. The bags of baby goodies were quickly discarded by the door and Alex was carefully trying to maneuver her wife to the bedroom.

“Couch.”

“Huh?” It was a rare moment of inarticulate blabbering by Alex.

“Couch. It’ll be easier on me and then you.”

Alex followed Olivia’s lead and before long Alex was on her knees between Olivia’s legs, which were up on the coffee table. Olivia had shed her panties as soon as they’d made it to the couch.

“Hurry Alex!”

The blonde smiled and finally managed to get Olivia into position. She lowered her head and with very little effort, Olivia came. Alex was surprised by her wife’s sudden and seemingly powerful orgasm.

“Liv?”

The brunette shrugged and gave her a small laugh. “Who knew watching you buying all that baby stuff could be so arousing?”

“*That* turned you on?”

“Hell yes. Probably had something to do with the fact that I know you want to take care of us.” She leaned in and kissed Alex. “And now I’m going to return the favor.”

Alex hesitated. “You don’t have to baby. You have to be uncomfortable.”

Olivia shook her head. “I’ve had a lot of free time Alex. The internet is a wonderful and beautiful thing for an expectant mother.” She waggled her eyebrows. “Where else do you think I found out about the best and easiest ways to please your partner while pregnant?”

Alex stood and quickly shed her own clothing and allowed Olivia to plop her down on the couch in the similar position she’d just been in. With her belly having grown, Olivia had to shift several times to find the best angle to reach Alex.

Alex looked down and watched as Olivia slowly and methodically loved her wife with her mouth. She left no part of Alex’s sex untouched and she slipped two fingers into the blonde, bringing her hips up off the couch. Alex’s orgasm followed quickly and tears sprung to her eyes.

“Alex?”

She shook her head. “I just love you so much and watching you love me…it just overwhelmed me.”

Olivia managed to pull herself up next to Alex and as best she could she pulled her wife to her. “I love you too.”

“I hope so.”

“Alex, sweetie, I do! I feel so complete and loved when I’m with you. And I want you every minute of every day. Even when Kellar is jumping up and down on my bladder and I need to pee every five minutes.” She kissed Alex again. “And I can’t wait until he’s out and we can get nasty without my belly interrupting us!”

Alex chuckled. “Get nasty? Do tell Mrs. Cabot-Benson. Just what kinds of things do you have in mind?”

“Just some stuff I found online.” She tweaked Alex’s breast. “But I am dying to get clit-to-clit with you.”

Alex moaned at the thought of being face-to-face, clit-to-clit with her lover.

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The Next Day

Alex Cabot was day dreaming about her wife, sans pregnancy, and all the ways they could and would make love. She was fanning herself when her secretary buzzed her to let her know someone named CiCi was waiting to see her.

“Send her in.”

“Ms. Cabot?”

Alex studied the girl who still looked scared, but who was now speaking with very little accent. And looking very determined.

“CiCi. What can I do for you?”

An hour later a very relieved looking CiCi left Alex Cabot’s office, and the ADA was wearing her predatory smile.

After a call to Elliot to get an update on the book, she decided it was time to call Kurt Moss.

“Moss.”

“It’s Alex Cabot and we need to talk.”

Alex had insisted on meeting Kurt at a hole in the wall restaurant. Outside and around the corner Elliot, Munch and Fin sat in an unmarked van, perched by the listening devices. Alex had insisted on wearing a wire, and Elliot had finally relented and agreed to help her with the less than legal eavesdropping operation.

Alex had arrived early and was seated facing the door. Moss made his way to her table and sat down, unsure of what she wanted to talk about. The waiter approached to take their order and scurried away when Alex informed him that they wouldn’t be ordering and to please leave them alone. She also assured him a very good tip if he did so.

Kurt gave Alex a palm’s up gesture and shrugged. “What do you want?” She slid a piece of paper across the table to him. He picked it up and read it and then laughed. “You can’t be serious?”

“As a heart attack.”

Kurt picked the paper up and summarized what was written on it. “In return for my signing away all rights to my child, Olivia will stipulate to paternity, agree to a limited number of visitations each year, at her discretion of course, and I will allow you to adopt my son.” He chuckled. “Oh, and I agree to make a sperm deposit at a cryobank of her choosing for any potential future children she or you may wish to have?” He laughed again. “And why would I agree to any of this? And why the hell would I agree to donate sperm to the cause?”

Alex ran her tongue over her teeth. “Let me start with the latter and then we’ll get to the former. I would not choose to have your tainted, demon seed impregnate me, but I do want to have a child and I want that child to be biologically linked to my wife’s child. Laws are changing regarding gay marriage, but I’m not taking any chances. Blood is always thicker than water and should something ever happen to either or both of us, well.” She shrugged. “As for the former…well, here’s why you are going to do this.” She reached into her briefcase and pulled out several more documents, handing them to Kurt.

She smiled as his face grew pale. “Seems your book is more fiction than non-fiction. A hell of a lot more.”

“…She…she lied to me then. I had no idea.”

Alex smiled and went in for the kill. “Oh but you did.” She pulled out a photo and handed it to him. “Your ‘child prostitute’ is really a 22 year old illegal immigrant you had an affair with two years ago. She told you the horror stories of her cousin who died in the sex trade, but she herself was never a prostitute.” Alex pushed her glasses up her nose. “She is however the probable cause of the bacterial vaginosis you gave Liv.”

In the van three men all squirmed and made faces at her comment. “Bastard.” Elliot looked at Fin and Munch and by silent agreement it was understood they would never bring the topic up to Olivia.

“You think you can blackmail me?”

Alex cocked her head. “Blackmail? No, never. That’s illegal. I am giving you a choice; do as I have so nicely asked or this affidavit finds it’s way to your book editor’s desk, the Times and FOX News. They hate liberals you know. Your reputation as a journalist will be ruined and your career as editor here at the Ledger will cease to exist. You’ll make Jason Blair, Stephen Glass and James Frey look like kindergartners.” She smiled at him.

“And if I do as you ask? What assurances do I have?”

“You don’t really.” She considered what she’d said. “Actually, that’s not true. You have my love for Olivia. If it were up to me I’d rat you out and make it so you couldn’t even get a job with the National Enquirer, banish you to some god-fore-saken corner of the universe and terminate any and all parental rights. However, I love my wife more than anything and I understand and respect her need for the baby to know his biology and have some sort of relationship with his father. I won’t begrudge her that.”

“You can’t expect me to just have a piece of myself out there walking around have nothing to do with him?”

“I’ll send you pictures every six months.”

“But…”

Alex Cabot had had enough. She stood up, leaned over the table and grabbed Kurt Moss’ shirt. “Listen you piece of shit; you blackmailed a young, impressionable Asian girl into going along with your scheme, chasing literary glory, in exchange for helping her get her green card. You made the most beautiful woman in the world self conscious about a scar she has on her breast that saved her life and then tried to subject her to golden showers, bareback anal sex and a toe fetish. Do you really think you deserve a child?”

“Hey!” He tried to get up but she pushed him back down. “I only tried to help CiCi and her family. I have connections that could help her. That story is real, just not the way I wrote it exactly.”

“Save it.”

Now angry he tried for one last parting shot. “Enjoy sex with her because I never did! The best night we had was the night we made a baby.”

Alex came back to the table and got down in his face. “That baby exists because of me. My kiss sent her running to you. Think about that.” Angry with herself for stooping to his level she pulled the wire out of her blouse in front of Moss. “I hope you got all of that guys.” She glanced down at Moss. “I’ll send the papers over first thing tomorrow and you will call and tell Olivia of your decision. I won’t have her going into deliver this baby with the threat of a paternity test over her head.” She caught a glimpse of the waiter and growled at Moss, “And tip the waiter.”

She stormed out of the restaurant and made her way to the van. She opened the door to find three very irate men waiting for her. She moved Munch out of the way and sat down next to him, trying to calm down.

“Asshole.”

Elliot motioned with his eyes for Fin and Munch to leave them alone and they exited the van.

“We got him Alex. You done good as we like to say in the police biz.”

She gave him a small smile. “Elliot…about what you heard there at the end…”

He held up a hand and shook his head. “I never heard anything and neither did the guys.” She smiled at him and he looked away and then back, unsure of how to ask what he wanted to ask. “What…what scar Alex?”

Alex debated revealing something so personal. “Elliot…she’s fine and in no danger. She took care of herself and didn’t want anybody to know and that asshole used it against her to make her feel less than she is. She didn’t keep you in the dark because of a lack of trust, it was just very, very personal.” Seeing that he still looked a little hurt at being left out she added, “Elliot it’s a woman thing, ok?”

“Oh. Ok.”

They sat staring at each other for a moment before he reached for Alex.

“I love her and thank you for loving her the way she needs to be loved. Deserves to be loved.” He swallowed hard. “I accept you and your place in her life.”

She smiled at him and kissed his cheek.

“I have a wife waiting on me at home. Thank you. And thank the guys for me.”

Alex let herself into the apartment and took a moment to compose herself. She relaxed back against the door and let out a deep breath.

“Alex? Is that you?”

She smiled at the sound of her lover’s voice. Pushing away from the door she worked her way through the darkened apartment and found Olivia in the nursery.

“Baby?”

Olivia smiled at her and returned to putting away the freshly washed baby clothes. “I think I am now officially nesting.” She grinned at Alex, causing the blonde to drop everything and pull her into a heated kiss. When they broke apart, Olivia grinned at her. “What was that for?”

“I love you.”

Olivia took a closer look at Alex and softly smiled at her. “Alex, I love you too.”

The blonde took her by the hand. “Baby, I need to tell you something and I hope you aren’t going to be mad.” She tugged at her, and led her not into the bedroom, but the living room.

“Alex?”

Alex took her lover’s hands and kissed her knuckles. “I saw Kurt tonight.”

XXXXXXXXXXX

Alex rolled over and realized she was in bed alone. Sitting up she listened to see if Olivia was in the bathroom. Not hearing anything and becoming concerned she rolled out of bed and walked down the hall stopping at the nursery, hoping she was in the midst of some mad nesting. She wasn’t and Alex continued on down the hall to the living room and found Olivia sitting on the couch with the TV on, but the sound muted.

“Liv?”

Without looking at her wife she mumbled, “Yes?”

Alex walked over to the couch and sat down beside her. “Baby? Baby, I’m sorry. I was only doing what I thought was right, best for you and the baby.” And me she thought.

“I know.”

“But you’re angry.”

“What?” Olivia looked at her and frowned. “No, I’m not angry about Kurt. It just is what it is. He’s really not a bad guy and unlike my own father, he’s not a rapist. So…” She shrugged.

“So what’s got you up, sitting on our couch in the middle of the night, watching an infomercial?”

She worried with the sleeve of her robe before looking at Alex.

“Do you believe I love you? Really believe?” Alex hesitated and Olivia saw it. “Alex?”

“You love me.” Alex was nodding, more to convince herself than Olivia. “I know you do.”

Olivia grabbed her hand. “Yes, I love you! I think I’ve loved you for years; I just didn’t realize what the feeling was. I knew, I knew long before you went away that I had very special feelings for you, I just never associated them with love!”

Alex tried to pull away, hoping that what was happening wasn’t happening, but trying to keep her bearings. Her fight or flight mechanism had kicked in and she wanted to run like Forrest Gump. However, she forced herself to stay grounded.

“Then how can you associate them with love now?”

Olivia sighed. “Alex…this is going to sound like a bad romance novel, but I never knew love until you. Everybody else was just a dress rehearsal before you.” She looked away. “And I lied.” She gave Alex a weak, half smile. “I used to have dreams about you sometimes. Before Velez. And after you left I had dreams; bad, good and…erotic.” She blushed slightly at the memory of her dreams. “That night you first kissed me…I knew Alex, I finally knew what that feeling I had every time I was around you was; love.” She took Alex’s hand and placed it over her heart. “I. LOVE. YOU.”

Alex pulled Olivia to her and kissed her hard. “Thank you for telling me.” She looked ashamed. “I…I’ve had some…not doubts really, but…I just…I’m just afraid sometimes that I sprang all of this on you and that we’re moving so quickly and you’ll wake up one day and you’ll realize that you don’t want me or this or….” She was babbling and while Olivia thought it was cute, she also knew she had to calm her lover down.

She grabbed Alex and pulled her to her and kissed her long and hard. When they finally needed air, Alex was the first to pull back. They smiled at each other.

“Baby…I need you, if possible. Can you?”

Olivia grinned. “You’ll have to do all the work. I’m about as mobile as a beached whale.” She knew Alex needed this, needed affirmation of her love for her and needed physical, tangible proof of her love.

Alex slid off the couch and settled between Olivia’s legs after helping her wife shed her robe and sleep wear.

Alex took her time, running her hands over Olivia’s belly and stroking her inner thighs, all the while holding Olivia’s gaze. She leaned up and in and flicked her tongue over the brunette’s nipple, drawing a moan from her. She took the nipple fully into her mouth and gave a gentle suck. She pulled back abruptly and looked at Olivia.

“What?”

She smiled. “You’re milk’s come in.” She nodded at her nipple. Swiping her thumb across the peak, she showed the drop of milk to her wife and sucked her thumb clean. “It won’t be long Liv.” She smiled at her wife and placed her hand in the center of her belly. She leaned in and kissed her wife again and then again, far less chastely.

They made love with Olivia doing what she could for Alex, which wasn’t much, but Alex didn’t care; Olivia had put her fears to rest.

XXXXXXXXXX

“Jim, I don’t care! You are not taking this to trial.” The blonde and her infuriating protégé stood staring at each other until he was the first to blink. Satisfied she’d won, she waved him out of her office. Her smile got even bigger as she saw Olivia approaching her with a large brown bag.

“Baby!”
Olivia kissed her on the cheek and waggled the bag at her. “I brought you some lunch.”

Alex ushered her in and shut the door behind her before kissing her. She eagerly peered into the bag Olivia was holding and squealed when she realized it was her favorite deli sandwich from Nate & Al’s Deli.

“Baby! What made you do this?”

Olivia held up a manila envelope and handed it to Alex. She watched as the blonde opened it and read over the documents it contained. Alex held her arms open and Olivia stepped into them. They hugged and whispered to each other.

“When?”

“He sent them by messenger this morning.” She lowered herself into a chair and motioned for Alex to eat. She wanted to laugh at the way Alex was moaning with every bite she took. When she’d finished her pickle, she smiled at Olivia and wiped her mouth.

“Good?”

“The best. What made you think of bringing me food?”

Olivia shrugged. “You’ve taken such good care of me during my pregnancy and I wanted to pamper you for a change.”

“Well I’m glad you did.” She took a swig of her soda. “So, what’s on your agenda for the rest of the day?”

Olivia held Alex’s gaze as she leaned in. “Well…I thought we could have a baby.”

Alex laughed. “We are having a baby!”

“No Alex, I meant right now.”

Alex felt her heart skip a beat. “Right now?”

Olivia nodded. “I started having contractions last night, but wasn’t sure if they were the real thing or not. They started getting stronger after I sgned the papers and just before I left to get your lunch, my water broke.”

“Your water broke?!”

“Calm down sweetie. My contractions are still at about 15 minutes. We have quite q ways to go.”

Alex looked at her watch and did a quick calculation. “Baby, you’ve been here at least 25 minutes!”

Olivia nodded. “Yep. They aren’t that strong, but you were lost in your corn beef bliss when it hit. And I do have a high tolerance for pain.”

Alex stood up and started clearing her desk, calling for her secretary and generally panicking.

“We have to go!” She took Olivia’s hand and helped her up. “Can you walk? Do we need an ambulance?”

Olivia giggled. “Yes and no.”

“What about your bag? Our focus item? And…and…and…what else?” She looked adorably helpless to Olivia.

“In the car.”

“You drove?” Alex swore. “Jesus Liv! You could have wrecked!”

Olivia gripped her hand harder and swore. “Alex, could we finish this at the hospital because I just had another contraction which means they are getting closer and it really hurt.”

8 Hours Later

Alex was holding Olivia’s hand, talking her through a contraction. They were coming fairly quickly now and Alex was trying to stay calm for her wife, but she couldn’t help but think that the brunette was the toughest woman she knew.

“Focus baby.” She did the breathing exercises with her and winced as Olivia squeezed her hand harder. “That’s it. Breathe.” She was relieved when the hand holding hers began to loosen. She smoothed the sweat soaked hair from her lover’s forehead and kissed her temple. “You’re doing great baby.”

“It hurts Alex. I don’t know if I can keep doing this.”

Alex again kissed her forehead and gave her wife’s hand a squeeze. “Yes you can baby. You can do this. You can bring our baby into the world.”

Olivia was looking at Alex with a sense of desperation, and seeking confirmation of her ability to deliver their child Alex saw her fear and anxiety and kissed her on the mouth. She nodded at her wife and whispered, “Yes, you can.” Olivia began to nod as well and prepared for the next contraction.

With a guttural scream, she bared down as hard as she could and gave one last push, forcing their son out into the world. She collapsed back against the pillows and managed to look up at Alex who had tears in her eyes.

“He’s here Liv! He’s here!”

Olivia was exhausted but wanted to see her son. “Is he ok? Is everything alright?” She noticed Alex was staring and she was beginning to get alarmed. “Alex? What’s wrong?”

The blonde looked down at her. “Nothing. He’s…he’s beautiful.” She tore her attention from Olivia at the sound of the doctor asking her if she wanted to cut the cord. Without hesitating she took the scissors and cut where they told her. She then watched as they took him off to get cleaned up and to do his APGAR.

“What does he look like?”

“It looks like he has dark hair; lots of it.”

The doctor was telling Alex to go check on the baby while Olivia delivered the placenta. She was reluctant to leave her wife’s side but Olivia nodded at her and she ventured over to where the newest member of the family was currently being poked and prodded.

“Is he ok?”

The nurse smiled at Alex and placed her hand on his tiny belly. “His APGAR is a 9 out of 10, which is normal. We’re just about done cleaning him up, so you can take him over to meet mom in just a minute.”

Alex glanced back in time to see something come sliding out of her wife. She suddenly felt queasy, but held it together for fear of tossing her cookies in the delivery room. Soon the nurse was handing her a tiny bundle of a baby boy who was wearing a newborn cap and blue blanket. She took a minute to look him over before slowly making her way over to Olivia.

She was now sitting up, somewhat, and held her arms out for her son. Alex placed him in her arms and leaned down and kissed her wife. They both looked down into his tiny face and quickly fell in love.

“Hey there. I’m your mommy.” Olivia looked at Alex. “And this is your other mommy. Welcome to the world baby.”

1 Hour later

Olivia was nursing the baby while Alex was out in the waiting room letting Elliot, Munch and Fin know what was going on. Cragen had been called away, so Elliot was going to call him and let him know everything was fine. She had also gone to call Simon and let him know he was an uncle.

Since visiting hours were over and the baby was going to be staying in the room with Olivia and Alex, the guys left with promises to come back the next morning.

Alex stood in the doorway and watched Olivia nurse the baby and then she watched as her wife began talking to their son.

“You are going to be the luckiest little baby in the world. You have not one, but two mommies who love you beyond belief and who love each other very much. Yes you do.”

Alex stepped into the room and sat on the edge of the bed. “Yes, but does he have a name?”

Olivia nodded. “Yes he does.”

“Well?” Alex tried to remember the last name Olivia had been ‘trying out.’ Remembering, she grimaced. “Liv, you can’t name him Linus.”

Olivia laughed. “Don’t worry, I’m not.” She studied him again. “Alex, I want him to have all the things I didn’t growing up; not monetarily, but history. He will never have to wonder who his parents are and I want him to be the start of our family history.” She looked up at Alex. “His name is Simon Alexander Benson-Cabot. And we’re going to call him Xander.” She looked to Alex to see her reaction.

“Xander.” Alex smiled at her. “It fits. But what about…Kurt?”

Olivia nodded. “We should call him and let him know. He’s welcome to come visit; before we get home.”

“I’ll call him, but he’s not welcome here until tomorrow. You’ve had an exhausting day and this little guy got pushed from the safety of your belly into the cold cruel world.”

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The Next Morning

The squad was eagerly waiting outside Olivia’s room the next morning and practically ran over Alex when she finally told them they could go in and visit her family. She watched from the door as each one of the guys took turns holding Xander and taking photos. They’d all brought gifts for the baby and flowers for Olivia. Elliot caught Alex’s eye and they stepped outside the room.

“Creepy man shown his face yet?”

“He’s coming after lunch.”

“You ok with that?”

Alex considered his question. “Yes, I am. I can’t change biology Elliot. And whether or not he knows it, Kurt Moss has given both of us the most precious gift; family. Because of him, we are a family and nothing is ever going to change that.”

3 Hours later

Kurt Moss entered the room and found Olivia asleep and Alex nowhere to be found. He walked over to the crib and looked down at his son. He was surprised to find brown eyes staring back at him.

“Well hello.” He fingered the baby’s wristband. “Simon Alexander.”

“We’re calling him Xander.”

He turned to see Olivia watching him.

“I’m sorry if I woke you.”

“It’s ok. What do you think?”

Kurt looked back at Xander. “I think he’s probably the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.” He suddenly found his feet very interesting. “Olivia, I’m sorry. I screwed up, didn’t I?”

“Yeah Kurt you did. In a way.”

“Huh?”

“You screwed up by not wanting anything to do with him Kurt, but you never really had me. I think I’ve always been in love with Alex, I just never realized it.”

“She loves you. Not many women would do what she did you know?” Olivia nodded. He took a deep breath. “I think…I think she’ll do a wonderful job raising my son.” He nodded at her and handed her a package. “These are copies of photos of me through my childhood, a savings bond, and this year’s child support check. Now that I know his name, I’ll open up an account for him. If that’s ok?”

“If you’re sure.” He nodded. She looked in the package. “Thank you for this.”

He crossed the room and kissed her on the cheek. “I love you.”

“I know.”

He nodded at her and said good bye before turning and running right into Alex. He hurried by her.

Alex checked on Xander and then settled on the bed with her wife.

“You ok?”

“Perfect.”

6 Weeks Later

Alex, Olivia and Xander had settled into a nice routine during the first weeks of his life. He was content to wake every two hours to be fed and Olivia and Alex were up with him for every feeding. Olivia had tried to get Alex to sleep through the feedings to no avail. She’d pointed out that Alex couldn’t breast feed him, so she might as well sleep.

The blonde had taken the role of parenthood with great commitment and insisted on being a part of everything in their son’s young life. She’d even taken to calling every hour on the hour as long as she wasn’t in court and after a first disastrous attempt to bathe him; she’d gotten the hang of it.

Olivia would sometimes catch her staring while she breast fed and smiled at the faint blush that always colored her cheeks when she was caught. She’d taken a week off after his birth and had taken great care with mother and child.

Olivia had been surprised that the tough as nails prosecutor was often reduced to baby babble and making silly noises to their son. Her favorite time however, was when she would catch Alex holding him by the window and ‘discussing’ his future with him. She never interrupted those moments; instead she slipped away before Alex ever knew she was there.

The one thing both women missed was the closeness of making love. Olivia had worked hard to lose as much of her post baby weight as possible, but she was still a few pounds heavier than she felt comfortable with. Which is why she’d gotten the ‘all clear’ at her wellness visit three days earlier, and she had yet to make love with Alex.

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Alex settled Xander in his crib and went to find her wife. Olivia had been to the doctor a few days earlier and Alex knew they had been cleared to resume their activities, but so far Olivia had been reluctant to welcome Alex’s advances.

“Liv?”

The brunette was in the bathroom getting ready for bed when the blonde slid in behind her. She kissed the back of Olivia’s head and smiled at her.

“Hey sexy. Why don’t you go kiss Xander goodnight and then come to bed? Naked.”

“Alex…I don’t…I don’t think that’s…”

Alex kissed her neck and circled her waist from behind. “You know Liv, if you keep holding out on me I’m going to start to think you only married me because you were pregnant.”

Olivia dropped her toothbrush and turned to face Alex. “Alex! You know that’s not true.”

“Then why aren’t we knocking boots detective? You got the green light four days ago and yet the most we’ve done is kiss.” Alex moved her hands up to Olivia’s breast and mindful of their tender state, she gently cupped them. “I don’t know if you’re too tired, too sore or just plain ol’ disinterested?”

Olivia turned in her embrace. “None of the above. How on earth could you think I’m not interested Alex?” Alex raised an eyebrow at her. “Alex…my body is different. I’m heavier than I’ve been in quite a while, and I don’t recognize this body as mine.” She began playing with the necklace around Alex’s neck. “It’s one thing for you to see my body looking…different when I’m pregnant. I have an excuse; but now it’s just me. And we’ve never had sex without a bump in the middle.”

“Olivia Cabot! How can you think that? I love your body and it drives me wild to think you brought our son into this world with this very same body.” She kissed Olivia. “And I’m dying to try the whole clit-to-clit, face-to-face thing with you.”

Olivia swallowed hard and kissed Alex. “Let me go say goodnight to the prince.”

Alex quickly brushed her teeth and then stripped before sliding between the sheets. She also put the bottle of lube on the nightstand and plumped up the pillows. She was fiddling with the stereo remote when Olivia came back to their room and began to strip.

Whatever inhibition her wife had before, were obviously gone now as she stood at the foot of their bed naked and looking at Alex. Alex looked up, saw her and immediately got out of bed and went to her.

“I want you.” Olivia smiled at her comment and stepped into her arms. They stood breast to breast for the first time and Alex smiled at her. “You feel nice. Very nice.”

Olivia cupped Alex’s ass and pulled her flush against her, moaning at the feel of Alex’s wetness on her. She kissed her wife and smiled.

“Miss me?”

Alex nodded and then swiftly turned Olivia and pinned her to the bed. She began exploring her wife’s new body and left no area untouched by her hands, lips or tongue. Trying to gauge her wife’s readiness, she slipped first one, then two fingers between her folds and gave a slight nod to the brunette.

“You’re wet.” Olivia nodded at her. “We still might need some lube.”

“How’d….”

“You aren’t the only one using the internet baby. You’re breast feeding.” She shrugged. “It can cause dryness.”

Alex raised up on her knees and began to position herself so that their clits would touch.

“Have you ever done this?”

Alex shook her head. “First time for everything baby.”

After a few botched attempts which had both women laughing at their lack of dexterity, they finally got it right. With the first swipe of Alex’s clit over Olivia’s, both women moaned and Olivia began thrusting her hips to add more friction.

“Oh God! Alex!”

Olivia was the first to fall over the edge and Alex followed right behind her, collapsing on top of her lover.

They made love several times that night between feedings and Alex was thoroughly worn out the next morning. She considered calling in, but Olivia told her she really wouldn’t get any more rest if she stayed home.

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4.5 Months Later

For Xander’s 6 month birthday, Alex was taking her family out for dinner. They were at ‘her,’ the little Italian restaurant she’d taken Olivia to the night they first made love. Alex was delighted to show her son off to the owner.

They were having desert when Alex’s smile faltered.

“Alex?”

She gave her wife a tight smile and motioned in the direction of the door where a young man stood.

“Who is that?”

“That is Robert’s son.”

“Son? I thought…oh wait, you said early on that he had a son from a ‘prior’ relationship.” She looked him over and realized he was of Latin descent. “He’s…”

“Adopted.” She waved to the young man who’d seen her. “Robert and the boy’s ‘mother’ were ‘involved.’ They ‘adopted’ him.”

“Why do you keep using air quotes?”

Alex laughed. “The woman is a lesbian, Robert is…well, you know and that boy was not adopted the regular way. He was bought. The whole relationship was a sham, complete with child. Robert was trying to secure natural gas rights in Brazil and as an act of good faith…” She shrugged.

“Ouch.”

Alex looked sad. “He’s a good kid and Robert treats him well, but he’s never really had a home.” She smiled at her wife and son. “Not like our family.”

The teen, which Olivia learned was named Emmanuel, had stopped and chatted with Alex for a few minutes. The boy was obviously starved for attention, seeking Alex’s approval for every thing he mentioned.

She was proud of the way her wife took the time to assure him and offered to go to lunch with him to discuss his plans for college. After he’d left, Alex caught Olivia smiling at her.

“What?”

“You really are good with kids.”

“Thank you.” She played with her pasta before speaking again. “I want more Olivia.”

“Food?”

Alex laughed. “No, babies.”

“Ok.”

“Ok?” Olivia nodded. “And you don’t mind if I’m the pregnant one?”

“Be my guest!”

“Ok.” Alex nodded. “Not right now and not until he’s at least a year old, ok?”

Olivia smiled at her. “Alex, we can have as many children as you are willing to push out because I’m done having them.”

The blonde cringed and then laughed at her. “I think one will do nicely.” She smiled. “Cabot, family of four. I like that.”

Olivia ran her foot up Alex’s leg under the table.

“And I think I’d like for you to take me home and make use of that new toy I know you bought just for tonight.” She put her foot right in Alex’s crotch. “I’m ready to be dominated Mrs. Benson.”

Alex signaled for the check and they made their way home where Olivia was dominated by Alex well into the night and the next morning.