TITLE: BEB: The Arrival

RATING: MA

SUMMARY: The stork arrives………

 

They made love slowly and afterwards, they lay spooned together. A couple of hours later, Olivia was awakened by Alex.

"Again?" She mumbled sleepily.

"Baby, wake up." Olivia ran her hand down Alex’s front and to her center where she found wetness.

"God you’re wet." Alex nudged her.

"Liv, baby, that’s not desire. My water just broke."

Olivia sat upright and turned on the lamp. Looking horrified, she pulled the covers back and found the area around Alex drenched.

"Happy Mother’s Day, baby."

Olivia jumped up from the bed and began to move about the room. "Labor? Labor. OK." Looking at Alex she blurted, "We need to go. I need to pack your bag." She started for the bedroom closet, but Alex stopped her.

"It’s already packed."

"When?"

"Yesterday when you and Kennedy went shopping. I packed his bag as well. They’re in the front closet."

"Ok so……."

Alex smiled at her. "I need to change. Can you help me?"

Olivia nodded and found a pair of maternity sweats for Alex. She helped her change and then removed the soiled items from the bed. After being assured by Alex that she would be fine, Olivia went into the bathroom to change.

"How far apart are your contractions?"

"About five minutes."

Olivia’s head whipped around. "How long have you been in labor?"

Alex shrugged. "I started having contractions yesterday, but at first I thought they were Braxton-Hicks. They started coming more frequently, so…."

Olivia nodded. "Are you ready to go?"

Alex patted the space beside her and motioned for Olivia. "We have time Liv. She’s not coming in the next hour. Just sit with me for a while." Olivia sat next to her and Alex leaned into her. "Just think, the next time we’re in this room, we’ll have a daughter. Your daughter."

Olivia pulled Alex’s hand to her lips and kissed it. "Our daughter Alex."

Alex sighed. "I wonder what she’ll look like? How dark she’ll be?" Fingering a lock of Olivia’s hair she continued, "I hope her hair is your color."

They sat silently for a few minutes until a contraction gripped Alex.

"It’s time to go Alex. I’ll go get Kennedy and then come back for you."

She hurried down the hall and scooped up Kennedy and his Pooh. The little boy rubbed his eyes as Olivia slid his house shoes on his feet. "Mom-O?"

"Everything’s fine Kennedy."

Laying his head down on Olivia’s shoulder he yawned. "Is it time?"

Stopping, she smiled down at him. "Yes, it’s time. She’s on her way."

Clutching Pooh tighter, he said, "I hope she doesn’t take too long."

"I’m sure Mommy doesn’t either."

Olivia stopped in the doorway of the bedroom and simply watched Alex. Her arms were behind her, head tilted back and hair falling behind her. Olivia noticed her eyes were closed and her lips parted. She brought her right hand to her lower belly and was stroking. Olivia felt a tug on her collar.

"Mommy’s pretty."

"I’d say beautiful."

As Olivia got both Alex and Kennedy herded to the front door, she was ready to leave when Alex stopped her.

"You’re forgetting something Liv." At Olivia’s confused _expression, she pointed down to the floor where Clarence was making his presence known. "There’s a plastic grocery bag in the kitchen with his things packed, and his new leash is on the counter. Olivia nodded.

After finally getting everybody loaded into the car, she threw the dashboard light on, and pulled out her cell to call Jenny and Serena. They pulled up in front of their friends apartment building a short time later. She unloaded Kennedy and Clarence into the care of Serena.

"Thanks for doing this."

Serena smiled. "No problem. Besides, you guys can return the favor in a few months." Olivia nodded and hurried back to the car. She and Alex watched until everyone was safely inside the building.

Alex gripped the dashboard and grimaced. Catching Olivia’s worried _expression, she said, "Don’t worry Liv. Still at five minutes apart."

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When they were finally settled into the birthing suite, Olivia began to pace. Alex watched her, slightly amused. "Baby? Would you come sit with me?"

Doing as she was asked, Olivia settled in beside Alex. "Alex, is Jenny pregnant?"

"Jenny? No. Serena maybe, but not Jenny. Why?"

Olivia told her about Serena’s comment. "Serena wants to carry a baby? Huh." As Olivia was pondering Serena’s likely pregnancy, Alex squeezed her hand in a death grip. "Are you ok?"

"Baby, maybe you should go call my mother and whomever else you want."

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By the time Olivia was finished making the calls, Dr. Brumby had arrived. "Olivia, looks like we’ll be having a baby sooner, rather than later." Handing Olivia a pair of scrubs, the brunette went into the bathroom to change. When she emerged, Alex was in stirrups and Dr. Brumby was checking her again. Alex reached for her, and Olivia took her hand and kissed it.

"She’s in a hurry Liv."

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Four hours later and Olivia was beginning to wonder just how soon, soon was. Alex was sweaty and had refused drugs. The younger woman had a death grip on Olivia’s hand and was squeezing to the point of pain.

"Sweetie, you’re hurting me." As the next contraction peaked, Alex tightened her grip. "Allllex!"

"I love you Liv, but this is it. No more from me." Before Olivia could answer, Alex had another contraction.

"You’re doing great Alex. I’m proud of you."

Alex glared at her. "It didn’t hurt this bad with Kennedy."

"Sweetheart, you were drugged to the gills with Kennedy. You probably don’t remember." Alex tightened her grip again and Olivia wisely kept her mouth shut.

After another hour of hard labor, Alex bared down as hard as she could, and the baby’s head popped out. With Olivia’s encouragement, she gave one final push and out came the baby.

"She’s here!"

Alex collapsed back against the pillows and watched as Olivia cut the cord. She motioned for the baby and Olivia carefully placed her in Alex’s arms. Both women watched as the baby sought out Alex’s nipple and finding what she was looking for, she latched on and began to nurse.

She was allowed to nurse only briefly as the nurse took her away to be cleaned and to do her APGAR. Leaning in to Alex, she whispered words of love and kissed her on the lips, all the while keeping an eye on the baby. She held Alex’s hand as she delivered the placenta, and as they began to clean up Alex, she went over and took their daughter from the nurse.

She glanced down into brown eyes. Her brown eyes. She held the baby a little tighter and introduced herself. "Hey baby girl, I’m your Mommy." Olivia stood, simply watching the baby for a few minutes.

"Liv? Can I see her?"

Surprised, Olivia took the newest member of the family over to her wife and placed her in her arms. Alex began inspecting her, and Olivia began playing with her hair.

"Alex? Her hair’s curly."

Alex touched the hair and looked at Olivia. "Your mother? Grandmother?" Olivia shook her head. Alex studied Olivia’s hair. "Yours has a bit of a wave to it."

Olivia frowned. "Crawford?"

Alex shook her head. "Nothing in his profile said anything about curly hair." Olivia slowly nodded, pushing an errant and unwelcome thought aside. Tracing her daughter’s lips, she was delighted when the baby took the tip of her finger in and began to suckle.

"She’s beautiful Liv. She looks like you."

Olivia shook her head. "She looks like my mother."

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After the nurses came in to finish up with Alex and take the baby down to the nursery, Olivia went out to see their friends.

She found Mrs. Cabot, Fin and Cragen waiting. She filled them in on the delivery and then led them down to the nursery, where baby Benson had just been put on display.

Four sets of eyes stared at the baby and Fin was the first to speak. "Uh Liv, you sure that one belongs to you and Cabot? She’s pretty dark and you know Cabot’s chalk white. I know that the donor has a dark complexion, but….And all that curly hair."

Olivia smiled at him. "Yep, she’s ours."

Mrs. Cabot rubbed Olivia’s shoulder. "She looks like you Olivia."

Fin and Cragen looked shocked. "She’s yours?"

Olivia looked at Fin and nodded. "Yep. My egg. Cragen laid a hand on her back and in uncharacteristic form, she hugged him.

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After everyone had left and Alex fell asleep, Olivia sat down with their daughter and began her own inspection. "Hey baby girl. I’m your Mommy and you’re a Benson. Yes you are. I love you." She sat watching her daughter watch her.

Carefully, she pulled the diaper away from the baby and smiled as she found a birthmark on the little girl’s right hip. Wrapping her back up, she began rocking her and talking to her. "I wish your grandmother was here to see you, yes I do." As she continued to rock, the baby began to nudge at Olivia’s breast. "Oh. I think you’re hungry. Let’s go wake Mommy."

Olivia was surprised to find Alex watching her as she got up. "Hey. I think somebody’s hungry." Alex smiled at her wife as she took the baby, who immediately latched on and began to nurse.

"She’s a little pig!" Olivia laughed at Alex and ran her hand over the baby’s head. Alex watched Olivia watching their daughter. "What Liv?"

Olivia shook her head. "Just thinking."

"About?"

"It’s silly. I just wish…I wish I could breastfeed her."

Alex cocked her head. "We discussed this. You could still take the shots to bring your milk in. It’s not to late." Olivia looked uncertain and Alex gave her hand a squeeze.

"I…I didn’t think it’d be this way. I love Kennedy with all my heart, you know that, right?" Alex nodded. "But this is different. She’s mine. That doesn’t sound right. I mean, Kennedy’s mine, but she’s blood." Alex could tell Olivia was getting frustrated.

"Baby, I understand. She’s the only other human on the face of the earth who shares your genes. It’s ok. I know you don’t love me or Kennedy any less."

Olivia kissed Alex on the forehead and murmured, "You knew I’d react this way, didn’t you?"

"I suspected. Now, will you tell me her name?"

Olivia smiled and said, "Alex Cabot, meet Sydney Reed Cabot-Benson."

Alex studied the little girl before saying, "It fits.

"I almost forgot! Look at this." Olivia showed Alex the birthmark on Sydney’s hip. "Look familiar?"

"One of my favorite parts of your body." Alex watched as Olivia began fingering the baby’s hair again. She made a mental note to talk to her about it later.

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The newest member of the Benson-Cabot family made her presence known the next morning by unleashing a blood curdling scream. Both Alex and Olivia jerked awake. Picking up Sydney, Olivia checked her diaper and then gave her to Alex to feed.

After the baby was fed and changed, she went to get Kennedy. On the way back to the hospital, they stopped by a flower shop and bought a dozen roses and two white carnations.

"What does she look like Mom-Mo?"

Glancing into the rear view mirror, she smiled at her son and said, "She’s beautiful."

She handed the vase containing the two white Carnations to Kennedy to give to his mother and she carried the roses. She grinned as the little boy carefully carried the flowers down the hall, trying not to stumble. She helped him open the door and watched as he hurried inside.

"Mommy!" Alex smiled at him as she brought her finger to her lips.

"Hey Kennedy. She’s asleep, so let’s be quiet, ok?"

He faltered as he brought the flowers to Alex and whispered, "Where is she?"

Olivia bent and gave Alex a kiss and the roses before answering, "She’s over here. Come on and I’ll show you." Picking the boy up, she took him over to the bassinet.

He peered down at his sister. "She’s little and she gots curly hair."

"You were smaller than her when you were born."

The little boy looked up at her. "I was?" Olivia nodded. Looking back at her he whispered, "She’s pretty. What’s her name?"

"Sydney."

Kennedy looked at his Mom-Mo and then over at his other mother. "You done good Mommy."

Sydney began to stir and Olivia picked her up and took her to Alex. "Are you ready to meet your brother?"

She began to whimper and instinctively Alex went to unfasten her nursing bra. She noticed Kennedy was watching her and she motioned to Olivia. Seeing the cause of Alex’s discomfort she was caught off guard and unsure of what to do. Kennedy, sensing what was going on, turned his back. His mother’s shared a smile.

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Meredith Cabot had picked both Kennedy and Clarence up from Serena and Jenny’s, and had taken them back to the loft. She was in the middle of fixing lunch when Olivia, Alex and Sydney arrived home.

They all followed Alex and Sydney up to the bedroom and watched as she settled the little girl into the baby bed. Olivia then fussed over Alex until she got back into bed. Olivia and Kennedy went downstairs to check on lunch, giving Meredith and Alex some time alone. Olivia also needed to make a phone call.

"She’s gorgeous Alex. I suspect you’ll have to lock her up when she’s older. And all that curly hair. Does that come from Olivia or Mr. Crawford?"

Alex sighed. "I have a suspicion it may come from Olivia’s father. In Crawford’s profile and the photos of his family that we’ve seen, nobody has curly hair. Not even a wave. Nor did Olivia’s mother or her grandparents. So…"

Meredith nodded in understanding. "How is Olivia handling that?"

"We haven’t talked about it yet, or even acknowledged it. She’s focused on taking the shots to make her milk come in so she can nurse."

Surprised, Meredith said, "I didn’t know she wanted to do that."

"Neither did she until Sydney arrived." Alex smiled, which turned into a yawn.

"You take a nap dear and we’ll be down in the kitchen. Let me know when you are ready to eat."

Alex was already asleep by the time Meredith got down the steps.

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That night, Alex watched as Olivia and Kennedy gave Sydney her bath. The little girl whimpered as the tepid water hit her skin and Kennedy laughed when her right leg splashed water all over Olivia. Drying off, she brought Sydney over to the bed and they all climbed in.

"Looks like we have a place kicker and the next Mia Hamm."

"Can I hold her Mom-Mo?" Smiling at Kennedy, she helped him hold his sister. "She’s heavy."

"She ain’t heavy, she’s your sister." Alex slapped at her and Kennedy looked confused. "What do you think about her Co-Counsel?"

"I like her." Looking down at her, he looked back up and said, "But Clarence is my dog."

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After they had both children down for the night, Alex gave Olivia her shot and laughed at the look on her wife’s face as she withdrew the needle.

"That burns."

"You sound like Kennedy."

Rubbing her hip, Olivia replied, "Well, maybe he has a point."

"I can kiss it and make it better?"

Olivia climbed under the covers and carefully pulled Alex to her.

"Do you want to talk about it?"

"About what?"

"Her hair and where it came from."

"I talked to Crawford today. Told him she was here. He sends his congratulations by the way. Anyway, nobody in his family has curly hair, so it had to come from him, my…father. It had to."

Alex pulled Olivia’s arm more tightly around her. "Are you ok with that? Can you handle that?"

Olivia snuggled into Alex even more before answering. "I always wondered how my mother could look at me and not think about it, the rape. Now I have a daughter who has a physical trait I can’t account for. Something that has to come from her…grandfather. When I first saw her hair, I knew. I knew where she got it and it…just sort of struck me the wrong way. But where it came from is already starting to fade. All I see is her." She placed a kiss on Alex’s neck. "And she’s beautiful. And if he helped create her, well, then something good came from my mother’s rape."

"No Liv. Two good things came from your mother’s rape. I love you and thank you for our daughter."

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4 Weeks Later

For the second night in a row Sydney was screaming her head off and Alex and Olivia were at a loss as to what to do. Sydney was scrunched up into a little ball and her face was blood red. She wasn’t wet, hungry nor was she feverish. The only thing that seemed to calm her was walking with her or rocking her. The night before, she’d cried for nearly five hours straight before falling into an exhausted sleep. Alex had finally sent Olivia downstairs to the extra bedroom to get some sleep.

Now it appeared that tonight was going to be a replay of the previous night. Alex was walking with her and Olivia was near tears at seeing her baby in such distress. "What is wrong with her? Do you think we need to go to the hospital Alex?"

Alex faltered as she considered what Olivia was suggesting. "I don’t think….I don’t know. Take her and I’ll go call Jenny and see if Kennedy can stay with them."

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Yawning, Olivia walked Kennedy up to the front of Jenny and Serena’s building. She was met by a sleep looking Serena, and for the first time she noticed the blond had a slight bump. Smiling at her obvious condition, Olivia handed Kennedy off and promised to call as soon as they knew something.

After two hours and numerous tests, the ER doctor told them Sydney had Colic.

"Colic? What’s that and how do we get rid of it?"

Alex groaned and shook her head. "It’s like a really bad case of gas Liv and most babies have it until they reach 3 months. Right doctor?"

The young intern, who looked like Doogie Howser’s evil twin, nodded. "Do you breastfeed?"

Alex nodded. "I’m going to give you a list of foods to avoid eating while you’re breastfeeding and a sheet that contains some soothing motions for babies."

Looking at the sheet, Olivia asked, "That’s it? Don’t eat certain foods and do a baby massage?"

"You may also want to offer something for her to suck on. A pacifier, breast, finger. Whatever."

"You want her to suck on a breast even though something Alex is eating may be causing this?"

Annoyed, he looked at Olivia. "I see your taking shots to bring your milk in and it hasn’t come in yet. Correct?" She nodded. "So let her suck on your breast. It’ll soothe her more than a finger or pacifier. Does that work for you?" Olivia glared at him. "And by the way, be careful to keep your nipples lubricated, otherwise the dry sucking may cause them to crack."

After he left the exam room, Alex snapped, "Well that was helpful. Little dweeb."

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Sydney’s Colic only seemed to bother her at night and both women took turns tending to her each night. The mother who had the night off would take Kennedy and go to the downstairs bed to sleep, since the little boy had fallen asleep at day care one day during a non-nap time.

Alex had learned to live without caffeine, spicy foods and milk. Olivia had almost given up on the hope that her milk would ever come in, even though Dr. Brumby had assured her it could take up to six weeks before she produced anything.

For this reason, it was her breast that Sydney often latched on to when she just wanted to suck on something. Olivia would never admit it to Alex, but her nipples were sore to the touch and she wasn’t sure how much more she could take.

Clarence was the only family member who seemed to be unfazed by Sydney’s crying and Olivia was convinced he had to be deaf. He’d simply trot down to the living room when she started crying and crawl under the couch, not to be seen until the next morning.

The first weekend after Sydney was diagnosed, they went to Mrs. Cabot’s house so they could get a good night’s sleep and the elder Cabot would stay up with Sydney. Apparently, Alex had been a Colicky baby and Mrs. Cabot had great sympathy for the new parents.

The second weekend they sent Kennedy and Clarence to stay with her as the little boy seemed to become more withdrawn form his mother’s, who had to spend a lot of time with Sydney.

That night in bed, Alex lay sprawled out as Olivia came out of the bathroom. They’d started turning in earlier and earlier in an effort to get as much sleep as possible before Sydney’s crying fits started.

"She’s six weeks old today Liv."

Olivia managed a half smile. "I know. Even though it seems like we’ve had her for years."

Alex laughed for the first time in two weeks. "So, I went to the doctor today and got the all clear."

Olivia made a non committal sound and grasped Alex’s hand. "Sweetie, I’d love nothing more than to roll you under me and make love to you, but I just don’t have the energy. Do you understand?"

Alex let out a sigh. "Thank God. I was afraid you’d want to do it, and I just can’t. Not that I don’t want to, I just don’t have the energy either. Maybe by the time she starts school."

Olivia laughed. "Do it? I haven’t heard that phrase since……well, never mind."

Alex cut her eyes at Olivia and quirked an eyebrow. Rolling over, she kissed her wife and snuggled into her side. "Oh we’ll do it Detective Benson…just as soon as I have the energy. Now let’s sleep before she starts crying."

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2 Weeks Later

Olivia was up walking with Sydney and Alex was putting the lid back on the bottle of anti-gas drops that never seemed to work, as the baby continued to wail.

Standing in the doorway with his blanket and Pooh, Kennedy demanded, "Make her be quiet Mom-Mo! All she does is cry!" Olivia glanced at him with sympathy as Alex took the baby from her and resumed walking with her.

Olivia picked Kennedy up and carried him into his bedroom and tucked him back into bed. "What’s wrong with her Mom-Mo? Why can’t she be quiet?"

Yawning, Olivia answered, "She has Colic Co-Counsel. She can’t help it."

Sticking his lower lip out, he said, "Send her back Mom-Mo!"

Managing a smile, Olivia said, "Sorry Kennedy. We’re stuck with her. But how about we go to the park this weekend. Just you and me?" Without answering, he turned over and covered his head.

After taking a deep breath, she walked back down the hall to their bedroom.

Alex was making another pass of the bedroom with Sydney. Olivia motioned for the baby and Alex gladly gave her up.

"Go to sleep Alex. I’ll stay up with her."

Looking at her sympathetically, Alex asked, "Are you sure?"

"You’ve got court tomorrow."

"It’s just a change of venue hearing. I should be in and out in under two hours. Damn Rodgers for breaking his ankle."

Olivia kissed her on the cheek as she cradled Sydney. "I’ve got her Alex." She waited until Alex had settled back into bed and proceeded downstairs to the extra bedroom. They’d finally figured out it was easier to "disrupt" Sydney’s sleeping arrangements than theirs or Kennedy’s.

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Shutting the door, she settled into the oversized chair and held the baby close.

"Come on Sydney. Just calm down. Come on baby girl." Olivia turned her so she was on her stomach and rubbed her back. Sometime later, Sydney finally cried herself to sleep. Olivia was afraid to move for fear of waking her. A few hours later she awoke when Sydney began to whimper.

Sensing a full blown crying fit, she cuddled her close. Sydney began rooting at her breast. Hesitantly, Olivia unbuttoned her pajama top and offered her breast to the baby. Sydney latched on to her mother’s nipple and began trying to nurse.

Olivia bit her lip as mild pain shot through her breast. Just as she was about to pull Sydney off of her sensitive breast, she felt something flowing from her breast.

Tasting her mother’s breast milk, Sydney’s little jaws began working in overdrive. She sat watching the little girl nurse as the sun came up. When she’d burped Sydney, she carried her back upstairs and settled into bed with Alex.

Waking up, Alex ran her hand over Sydney’s head. "Did you get any sleep?"

Olivia smiled. "Better. My milk came in. Those damn shots finally paid off."

Alex leaned up and kissed Olivia. "I’m glad." Rubbing Olivia’s belly, she added, "And I look forward to examining your progress myself."

"Do you now?"

"Detective Benson, while you have made love to a nursing woman, I have not. I feel cheated."

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"Uh Liv…."

Looking up at her partner she waited for him to finish his sentence. When she realized he was slightly blushing and looking at her chest, she looked down and found a wet spot.

"Oh…uh…my milk…it finally came in."

Elliot nodded. "Obviously. You know, you have to nurse every so often Liv otherwise they leak."

"I know that." In reality, she’d completely forgotten. She was on her way to the bathroom when Alex came into the squad room.

"Hey Bab….." Alex’s eyes were fixed on the large round spot on her wife’s shirt. "You’re leaking."

"Yeah, I know. I’m on my way to the bathroom to….you know." Nodding, Alex took her hand and drug her in the direction of the bathroom.

She pushed Olivia into the last stall and quickly un-tucked and unbuttoned her shirt. Before Olivia could protest, she unclasped her bra and pushed it aside, revealing the culprit. Alex felt her stomach drop at the site and leaned in to capture a bead of milk with her tongue.

"Alex what are….oh Jesus. Ah…."

Letting go of Olivia’s nipple, Alex whispered, "I want you. Right now." She started to unfasten Olivia’s belt, but the brunette stopped her. "What?"

"We’re in a bathroom at work!" Olivia harshly whispered.

Alex continued trying to get Olivia’s pants undone as she said, "Oh please. We’ve done it in my office before! Remember those two weeks Kennedy had nightmares and slept with us?"

"But this is a bathroom…."

"The Crib right after the Chicken Pocks?"

"But it’s not secure…."

Alex raised an eyebrow before continuing, "Petrovsky’s courtroom with me sitting on the bench and you underneath? And she came back for…whatever it was she came back for?"

"But….oh Hell, I don’t have a good reason."

Olivia had unbuttoned her pants and was trying to get Alex’s skirt up when they both heard the door open. Neither woman moved for fear of being discovered. They waited until they heard the water running at the sink and just as they thought it was clear, the voice of Lena Petrovsky could be heard.

"My courtroom will be empty at five ladies. And I promise not to come back this time." With that they heard the door close.

The mood broken, the women began rearranging themselves. "What the Hell was she doing in this bathroom Alex? Don’t judges have their own washroom?"

Alex shrugged. "Slumming I guess. Do you have a shirt you can change in to or better yet, can you come home for lunch and nurse?"

"Nurse, yes. Anything else, no."

"In case you’ve forgotten my mother is watching our daughter."

With an evil smile, Olivia said, "Halloween, two years ago?"

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Alex watched as Olivia breastfed Sydney. She wondered if this was how Olivia had felt watching her breastfeed Kennedy. The little girl’s jaws were working on her mother’s breast in a way she’d never breastfed with Alex.

"You look incredibly sexy doing that Liv."

Olivia looked at her and smiled. "Probably the same way you looked breast feeding Kennedy. Did you feel connected to Kennedy while he was feeding?"

Nodding, she smiled at her wife as she made her way over to her. "I think she’s done Liv. Why don’t you burp her and we’ll put her down for the night. Ok?"

Catching the look in her wife’s eyes, Olivia quickly complied.

She noted that Alex didn’t bother with pajamas as she exited the bathroom, and her pulse rate quickened in anticipation. She hurried into the bathroom with the intentions of quickly taking care of things and then joining her wife in bed. However, as she washed her face, she noticed her breasts looked fuller and the nipples had changed color. She wasn’t sure how long she’d been in the bathroom, but it must have been longer than necessary, because the next thing she knew, two pale hands were covering her own.

Alex ran her hands over Olivia’s breasts and kissed her lips. She murmured, "God you’re gorgeous. The sight of you breastfeeding is intoxicating. It makes me want you even more than I already do, if that’s possible. I need you."

With that, she dipped her head and took a nipple into her mouth resuming her attentions from earlier that day. Olivia threw her head back and clutched the edge of the bathroom counter. As Alex continued her attentions, she finally collapsed onto the counter and spread her legs.

"Alex please…."

"Please what? Tell me what you want baby. Tell me."

Olivia was panting as Alex resumed her suckling, tasting the milk flowing from her wife.

"I need you…."

Alex fell to her knees and draped Olivia’s legs over each shoulder. Using her thumbs, she gently pushed the dark hair away and pushed into Olivia with her tongue, causing the brunette to jerk forward. As Olivia babbled incoherently, Alex added first two, then three fingers as well as her tongue.

"Oh God Alex…."

A few more strokes and Olivia saw white lights. Alex gently removed Olivia’s legs from around her neck and stood, capturing Olivia’s lips. She then returned her attentions to her breasts and soon Olivia was holding Alex’s head to her chest.

Alex broke away and turned Olivia toward the mirror and bent her over, so that she was resting on her forearms. Before Olivia was aware of what was happening, Alex was taking her from behind, with her fingers deep inside her. She struggled to keep her eyes open as she made contact with Alex’s in the mirror.

Alex bent down and nipped her shoulder as she worked a finger in Olivia’s other opening.

"Oh fuuuuuck Alex."

Alex picked up the pace until Olivia exploded all over again. She held her as she sagged in her arms and kissed along her neck. "" love you and I love our daughter and had I known you'’ look so sexy breast feeding, I'd have made you take shots with Kennedy." She helped her into somewhat of a standing position and grinned. "Now let’s go to bed. It’s still early, and yes, your breasts are fuller and your nipples darker."

As they settled into bed, Olivia asked, "How’d you know what I was looking at?"

"Been there, done that. Now, where were we…."

Olivia flipped them so she was on top and kissed Alex. "While you’ve never made love to a lactating woman, I’ve never made love as a lactating woman."

A couple of hours later, just as Olivia was about to drift off to sleep, Alex said, "Liv….she hasn’t woken up yet."

"And this is bad why?"

"Not bad at all, but maybe your milk doesn’t cause her to be Colicky?"

Olivia nodded and burrowed deeper into Alex. "We’ll ponder the fate of the universe later. I’m glad your mother took Kennedy for the night and that I bought that Chinese silk screen."

Sydney woke them a couple of hour later, but instead of wailing, her cries were those of a hungry baby. Olivia nursed her and burped her and they held their breath until she drifted back off to sleep.

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Alex rolled out of bed the next morning feeling pleasantly sore, and looked in on her daughter and then at her wife, who was dead to the world. After showering, she woke Olivia who immediately asked for a cup of coffee.

"Sorry baby. No caffeine if you’re going to breastfeed." She groaned and rolled over. "Apparently your breasts are the cure for what ails her. Speaking of which, I’ve already pumped once this morning, are you going to want to pump or stay home today or come home at lunch?"

"Huh?"

"Liv, nursing women need to express their milk every so often and we only have one breast pump and I’m covering a hearing for that idiot Rodgers today. So what’s it going to be?"

Realizing that staying home would allow her to spend some time with Kennedy, she opted for that and called in to let Cragen know she’d be taking the day off. She also got online to see about buying a breast pump and how quickly she could get it here.

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Alex arrived home that afternoon to find her three favorite people curled up on the couch asleep. Unable to resist, she grabbed the digital camera and snapped a few photos before waking her wife.

"Hey. What time is it?"

"A little after three. Court went longer than it was supposed to. The defense is pushing for a speedy trial date and I may end up having to cover the trial, unless Branch can reassign someone else." She frowned her displeasure.

"Well Counselor, I may have a solution. I called the pediatrician’s office today and there may be some validity to your Colic theory. She’ll be in the Colic safety zone in about three weeks and technically, I am entitled to take a maternity leave, so I put in for one with Cragen today. And this way I can spend time with Kennedy as well. Work on his kicking skills. We’ve fallen behind the last few weeks."

Alex hugged her wife and rolled her eyes at the mention of the "kicking" lessons Olivia and Kennedy took part in every night. Or almost every night.

"Are you sure you want to take a leave?"

"Yeah. I want to spend as much time with her as possible. And Kennedy. I don’t want him to feel left out." Alex nodded. "Are you ok with me wanting to take a leave? You know, cut in on your bonding time and all?"

"I’ll still have almost nine months to make it up to her Liv, so yes, I’m ok with it. Anything to get a good night’s sleep!"

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Two Weeks Later

Alex Cabot arrived home having won a conviction for the people of the state of New York. She could hear squeals coming form the loft apartment and hesitated before unlocking the door.

"Good job Kennedy! That one was really high!"

Smiling, she opened the door and saw a makeshift goal post set-up in their living room and their daughter sitting in her swing watching her mother and brother practice kicking the Nerf football. They were unaware she was there, and she watched as even Clarence got in on the action by running after the ball.

"So this is what New York’s finest does while on maternity leave?"

Four sets of eyes looked in her direction and Kennedy came running toward her shouting, "I hit it good Mommy! I hit it good Mommy! The ball hit the light!"

Alex cut her eyes at Olivia and said, "Oh really?"

Olivia made her way to Alex and kissed her soundly, hoping to distract her. "Did you win honey?" Alex nodded. "Great! Let’s order your favorite for dinner."

"Not so fast. Is my antique light fixture in one piece?"

"Yes."

Picking up Sydney, she kissed the little girl who smiled at her. "How are you today? Did Mommy feed you?"

"Not Mommy! Her name is Mom-Mo!" Kennedy insisted that Olivia be called Mom-Mo!"

"Did Mom-Mo feed you and did you watch those silly two play that silly game?"

"Football is not silly Alex. Just wait. This kid has the leg of a cannon and he’s going to play on Sunday’s. Just you wait."

"As long as he sits on a judicial bench on the weekdays, I don’t care what he does on Sunday’s." She looked down at a beaming Kennedy and asked, "Who was your dog named after?"

Without missing a beat he answered, "Clarence Darrow. He did something with monkey’s."

Alex and Olivia laughed. "Close enough for now Co-Counsel."

Alex turned her attention to Sydney and said, "And you, you are going to be my heir apparent in Princesshood. In fact, there’s a sale at Bergdorf’s this Saturday. We’re going and your mother and brother aren’t invited. I’ve got your outfit all picked out and you can wear the baby diamond ring your brother bought you with Mom-Mo’s help."

"Alex…"

"I think there’s a goal post that needs to be taken down with your name on it Olivia."

Olivia kissed Alex and motioned for Kennedy to help her take it down.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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